IKAHH's bloggehhhh(:

2010-06-27T01:06:00.000-07:00

helloe wello cutie fellow!
kay NONSENSE. x) sunday madrasah day but decide not to go cause didnt feel like it. so hang out and catch up with awesome gf saraaah.^^ so funny lah, we talked about practically anything and everything. about family, people in secondary school, old pictures and videos and music too.syafirah and hidayah in mama sae mama sa mama ko sa ! mama sae mama sa mama ko sa! x) shake maha shake. angkat skirt smpi nampak panty.. ;) BAHAHAHA. feel like uploading that vid in fb. tehehees. but cannot lah, too uhmm exposed. x) hahaha!
and Nabilah, rest well and clear your mind. hope you'll feel heaps better and your conditions must improve by next term... GO AHNAB!
hmmm, school is starting back for most people. secondary and some poly.. holidays overrrrr and it's exam timeeee! good luck everyone do your best. My second test is starting next week.pffft. should start revising. okay i'll stop here. till i update again readers. take careeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-06-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

now then i realize, i dont know what i want nor like.
of course i prefer easy stuff.
but i forgot that nothing is easy.
everything is hard actually
so i dont like everything. hahah. okay whatthehell am i saying.. :}

2010-06-09T10:03:00.000-07:00

I can't keep up like others, this makes me worried.but i try my best.

Today went to somerset to get some stuff for my gemini and scorpio ladies at late noon. ;D Then time was already 5pm+, somerset and novena is near so decided to meet that girl up there after her work.^^ so nice meeting her today.makes me smile,happy and excited.hahah. come out from train door and smiles like one crazy girl. near-ing her smiles get wider and make highpitch noise/laughter. hahah. went to cwp to get some earstuds. I change my earstud price. instead of paying $2.90, I paid $1.50. siak eh? bahahaha! eat ice-cream and ruffles and had a good time talking to each other from novena all the way until my block.she is awesome.I love sarah! <3

hmmm let's see if i can remember what i did in the past few days..

Friday:

Catch up with Hidayah baby on the phone. :D

Trying to webcam with soul sista but failed cause msn is being an ass.

Saturday:

Went to wisma indah with Sarah. :D And mik thought i was being mean/sarcastic when i actually didnt mean anything. hahah. sorry currypap cause you thought i was being mean.

Talked with Hidayah baby on the phone again.:D

Sunday:

Went to the airport to send off my fav aunt back to Dubai or is it Oman..

Catch up with Iffah on the phone.:D

Signed up for this community with Eva Rossette. ;) and someone thought i was romanian? hahaha! XD shit.i havent post any poem or story yet while eva already has. okay i should post soon. i created two poem during Ramadhan Romance *coughslikecoughs* you know i know GFs :))))

Monday:

jogged with bilah.

Tuesday:

went to johor with mum and dad and lisha.bought something that I like very much:D

~today~

Future plans..

Thursday:

will meet my drama cliques. especially emmaaaa! it has been ages since I last meet/talked to her.

Friday:

cca SLC bonding session at school.

Saturday:

may finally come true:D

Sunday:

attend a wedding at yishun. i'm scared that it's gonna be weird.hahah. but nvm, i should stop thinking/feeling weird :]

2010-05-09T04:36:00.000-07:00

" Go fly kite "

i can fly kite at indonesia but not at marina barrage?!?!

Is it the wind here or is it just me?????

Naahhh, its me.. That kite in e picture was actually already in the air and i just took it from the man who was selling it.. :} HAHAHAH! X) Hmmmm, friday and saturday was DA BOMB. I did enjoyed myself for both outings. Friday is funny, e movie the back-up plan is hilarious. i really concentrate till some ppl can make fun out of it... yeahh, well people should know that i really like entertainment and i do watch the TV alot. so that should explain it. :D *khusyuk benar eh ikah*

hahahaha! X) well ten bucks to watch movie is kind of costly,cause i know that the last time i watched movie, momma just pay $6. i can watch it from the internet actually but nvm, time spent with GFs is priceless. it did made me happy and ill-feelings was gone for awhile. :DDD

Then comes super saturday! and four out of five of us play kites at marina barrage!^^ awesome much. but it would have been more awesome and gerek if hid did come along... Nehmind, thr will always be a next time :)))))) we can make time for each other. Unless its exam period then cannot lah.. hahahah. Well i dont want to elaborate much abt saturday, pictures will be uploaded later by soul sista aka sarah :DDD let the pictures explain it all..........

About e kite, though i had fun... it was tiring.... i ran and ran, tossing and turning e kite into e air..

FUHHHH. it takes alot of my energy. then after the whole thing, when sarah talked to me, my reply is pathetic bcos i was too tired and almost expressionless. muke confirm merepek. hahahah. so sorry my dear, i didnt mean it... but she know i was tired.. gosh, this show how easily tired and weak i am. Lpas main KITE je takleh react properly.. Boo me.. *BOOOO*

Sofia can make it fly so easy. Gosh how did she do that? jealous i. I guess i need time to practice and develop the skill for playing kite. Nehmind, i'll buy somemore and practice with sarah at our neighbourhood backyard. we'll play at the hill some time to come.^^ WUW!

"TARIK-TARIK LEPASSSSS... TARIK-TARIK LEPASSSSS..."

i keep saying that when i was playing kite with sarah at one point.. X) HAHAHAHAHA! :DDDD

funny or whaatttt.. hehehees :}

then today got madrasah, as usual me and sarah is late :} blahblahblah learnt about agama hindu and how & when islam was actually spread to singapore. Actually this country is supposed to be a malay country bcos of org laut and org melayu-islam staying in this land. thanks to Sir Thomas Stamford Raffles importing thousands of people from china, org melayu-islam yang at first the majority become the minority....danggggggg.

though friday & saturday i had a great time and was feeling happy and all.. i felt weird tday. like reaaalllyyyyyyyyyyy weeeeiiirrrrrrdddddddd. esp when going home time. i talked non-sense. poor soul sista got to hear/entertain/endure my crap. :S i was kind of sot, wait no, v e r y sot. and a little bit emo i think. or very? i dont know.. :l i dont know what's going on and what's exactly in my head/heart. maybe i think too much. and i was telling her that i miss someone. someone that i shouldnt miss. cause he is merepek. and never change. haiyaaaaa. well i miss the good times with him though. Our conversation can be so deep & personal. *okayshutupikahthatsthepast*

hmmm i think i cracked. i think i may cracked in the future or i already did. i think too much. making assumption/inferring. gosh my brain like to imagine things. i shouldnt take every little detail into consideration or my head will explode, and no one wants that to happen. I must force myself to be objective before i drive myself crazy. or else it cud cause unneccesary problems.

till then, i havent figure out my objective nor the problem. yet. got some emotional clearing to be done.

p/s: sometimes i wonder, should i tell someone(=complain), to keep quiet, or to just be honest? i have always, always picked the third one.. till some thgs happened & made me think i should picked the second or first one. heh. and as i have always guessed since god knows how long, the second one may not be healthy. you know what i mean.

2010-04-24T03:25:00.000-07:00

Omggggggggggg, i was watching this movie just now and i cried many timessssssssss. like more than five times..

Is crying more than five times considered to be too much for just a movie? I know people usually cry two times during a movie, or basically less than five. But this?!? I cried MORE than five times! is it just me or this movie is DAMN GOOD? its very rare for fire signs like me to get emotional easily. woww, over the years, i feel that i've become more sensitive and emotional. I did score quite high-average for the level of neuroticism. that means i do respond emotionally to things. shit. i dont want that cause emotional can get the best out of me sometimes.. :/ i guess i should listen to my head more than my heart sometimes. Emotions can diminish our ability to think clearly, make decisions and cope effectively with stress. so i hope the level of my neuroticism will decrease over the years.. Besides, they said Neuroticism decreases with age.. so just wait and hope things things will change for the better. Hmmm, now i know how the water sign usually feels.. :l cause i'm in this period now... Very sot, emotional, or maybe even too sensitive. Gosh how i wish i'll be out of this period soon... I'm still feeling the same as how i felt in my previous post. Still sad.. depressed.. shocked.. and many more you can think of.. Though i may not show... the thoughts, feelings, and memories kept replaying back in my mind..

Why must we be separated from our close ones? Why cant we just be close to one another everyday?? Why cant we just be near to each other?? WHY?? i do know the answer but sometimes i just cant seem to accept it. i'll somewhat deny it. Okay so what do i think the answer is? I think we are separated from each other cause everybody has different ambitions in life.. Some of us want to be a doctor, a teacher, a photographer, lab technician and e list goes on and on and on.. Thats why we cant be together all the time and do the same things like before.. unlike in secondary school.. :l :(((

Haiz..i know this is part and parcel of life. But.. kay nvm. idk how exactly to put it in words. All of us want to be different person when we grow up. thats why, we got to be separated, while we're on our way learning and striving to become what we want to be in life. :l :/ :] NOW I THINK my answer would be different for the facebook quiz. The quiz was this: What do you need in order to be happy? And i got success. The quiz say i need success to be happy.. then i see my friend's result. they all need friends to be happy. i wondered why my ans was different than the rest.. :/ I think my head was kookoo at that time. Looking at things right now, my answer shud be friends. I need friends to be happy. Look at me now, do i look/sound like i'm happy? The ans is obvious. *sighs*

Hmm about that movie. I think i cried many times because it reminded me of Mr Russia/Y. :/ i was very very very very very angry and upset and superrrrrrrrrrrr hurt. Till i was m.i.a for one week. I was down,needed time to be alone.to suck my own wounds till it healed... all the things that had happened. from what he did to how he react/respond.. :l He's been both a sweetheart and a jerk. He msged last week, as if wanting to start what we used to have last time. And hid bby asked will i give him another chance to redeem himself? well, i dont know. some part of me say yes i should give. while some part of me says no. To be honest, if there is any reason why i choose to avoid being in contact with somebody, its because i dont want to get hurt again. Haiss i miss those times when we were close. I'm not sure if thats ever possible to happen again. Hmmm, like hidayah said.. Just keep the gd memories bt try to forget the bad ones. Yeah..life should be like that. (Y)

I was emo countless times this week and last week. thinking about the past. about my GFs. I wonder how are they doing. I wonder how are they coping with their daily life routine.. are they thinking what i'm thinking? are they feeling what im feeling? we all are in different environment. be it schooling or working. Though i'm in the same block as sofia, i rarely see her. Its so weird. seems so near yet so far.. Poly is sooooooooo huge. And there's sooooooo many people. i cant keep track of anyone unless they're in the same class as me. I didnt even bump into Firah this week. In times like this, whenever i think back the about things that i've done to my gfs. i feel guilty and miserable. i know what i've done wrong/bad/over. If i know i would be feeling like this, i wouldnt be too hard on ppl in the past. I wud just be patient and give them the best. I should be perfecting my love to them, overlook their faults and fight their mistakes. Yeahh, only now i understand that

Friendships are like wine, it gets better as you grow older.

2010-04-18T00:08:00.000-07:00

"I dont want

to walk this earth

If i gotta do it..

solo (solo).."

i use to be like that..

now im like this.. :l :{

"Cuz i was so high,

And now im so low..

And i dont wanna

walk around alone,solo.."

That song is now stuck in my head.. Solo by IYAZ. :l and its sooooooo suitable with my emotions feelings & thoughts right now. I'm sure it'll be an irony to some of my dearest&nearest cause i've always seem independent. i'm not dat scared or worried to do things alone.. i can go shopping solo even. but then. suddenly realization hits. "oh no.. they're not gonna be around near anymre.. i cannot see their faces everyday like i used to.. i cannot laugh talk & joke around with them like i always do before..face to face.. everybody is gonna be busy.. and that's freaking me out..". Being with awesome all-time favourite cool gerek people has a major cut down & drastic change. that's so.. .. so s a d.. :((( yearh i know we can still meet up, organize outings, bestfriends tak akan hilang punye all that. of course we wont forget each other. never. ever will be. but still, the change is so sudden and huge till it put me on edge..

shit.i guess i took advantage and take it lightly whenever they are around last time.. always thinking oh they'll be thr the next day,oh nvm i'll see them tmrw. now that they cant be around as often.. i'm in the state of shocked sad stress sad speechless sad. haiss. we used to be a team, running the streets/school , and was living out our dream/life, so carefree & happy :')

i even cried recently. i know so stupid right but what to do.. soal hati and emosi, cnnt control so should just let it out. i am so sorry cos i'm suddenly being so negative here. i just cant be positive at this period. not now. i wish i can be & stay positive like i always do but no.. now is the sot period. for me. i may not show how i feel, i may look smiley and happy all that but inside is like rojak. all the mixed feelings are jumble up. frightful thoughts are racing through my mind. now that im already in that school, i am trying n thinking n adapting as fast as i could to make the best out of it through out my journey and experience going through there. i got to figure out..SOON. so i'll stop being worried n stressed unnecessarily. gosh i hate being a freshman. i hate starting frm scratch. i hate not having the feeling of being "used to it". i hate not feeling like a senior. i hate not having my fav ppl around me. i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!

aww man, sec sch friends and poly friends are different. i rmbr what my eng tuition teacher said, when in poly & jc lvl already, there'll be more shrewd ppl around.. at least in secondary sch, you all are still in your decent years growing up all that. but when it comes to poly/jc level, you got to be careful with who you mixed around with. whoaa, thats so scary man. suddenly desperate housewives come to my mind.. the lady that usually speaks in the background ever said

"We must be very careful who we invites into our life.Cause we dont know what terrible secrets they bring with them, what effect they could do to our love ones. Some will come and go. While others may refuse to leave."

wouw. what a statement. i dont intend to find/make bestfriend in poly.cause im sure everybody already have their own bestfriends when in secondary school...so... just friends should be fine. u need alot esp those in the same class as you cos we need to help each other out. must happy happy together n susah susah together also..

" See, they give

me a purpose

Now im

getting nervous

That my heart will

never sing again " :l :/ :( :'<

2010-04-09T12:36:00.000-07:00

Look at the time now... as i am typing this, its already 4:17am in the morning... Isn't that amazing ? no actually it isnt cause im suppose to be sleeping so i'll have tons of energy for tmrw! ^^

aren't they sexy and sweet? ;) HAHA!

the simple ones for poly while the over ones is just adding to my closet collections.

will be collecting them tday at yishun around 5-6pm. Actually's there's four more.. but i dont have the pictures..Another 2 for my sisters and 2 for hidayah bby cause its my belated bday gift for her. (yearhiknw,shame on me cos its damn late)

but nvm,its the thought that counts. i promise to be on time next time. and i promise to make for everyone cool named necklace/bracelet. (Y) :))))))

hmmm, i dont know if i cant wake up tmrw. i need at least 7hrs of sleep. thats what's e internet says, so i'll probably finish this by 5 am, that means i can only wake up at..urmm 12pm. Yeahhh, that shud be enough time before i get ready and go out with the drama chics again! if i wake-up late, force me to wake-up horr. just wake me up & call me many times tau sarah at 12 noon. just make my phone ring non-stop. just in case the alarm wont work. hmmmm its SUPER SATURDAY! and we'll be SHOPPING together.. WUW!! :DDD it will and should be a great day tmrw cause not only i'll finally get the blogshop items, i'll be getting levis jeans frm sarah n myself then the shoe that i want! :DDDD and maybe some other stuffs idk :}

awww man. this is the kind of things that can cheer you up and make you feel happy and excited for the day tmrw! no wait, tday i meant. hahah. :}

actually i'm supposed to collect the stuff together with hid, but i dont want to trouble her. moreover, i want to include smth else b4 i pass them to her. (ouhh you will look sexy in that leopard-print dress hidayah.. ;P Hehehees ) okay, was msging let-it-go girl just now,then stopped cause she's sleepy already. Okay, now then i'm tired.. *yawnswideloudly*

huuh.buhbye. WO YAO SLEEP LIAO. ^__^

2010-04-09T04:05:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN ?

look at this face ppl. how i wished i can give you this face RIGHT NOW.

WOW.yday and tday has been a challenge for me. Including tday, total three challenges i have to face. so..idk whats the moral of the story.. but one thing for sure is.. i'm not scared. its not my fault.i've tried my best. ~~i wont die if ppl are trying to be funny or weird. it'll just drive me insane. but it wont be long till i get over it cause really, sometimes they're making the problem when it doesn't have to exist in the first place. c'mon you guys, snap out of it..... i want the old persons back. stop being/acting like something you're not.

hmmm.tday there was supposed to be a meeting/outing but i didnt go. cause i'm sick. like really sick. i woke up at a time when we're all supposed to meet. thats such a downfall. THEN. my body feels weird and i have running nose. the sickness came back. shit. i've just recovered and it came back? oh please allah, make me feel better.. ): i dont want to be sick when poly start. i need to be healthy and normal and meet new ppl with bright fresh cheer-y faces:((((not sick with dull-low-energy face.

man i'm so weak tday, after i ate my breakfast, i fell asleep again. And lay down on the bed the whole day. THE WHOLE DAY. that simply show how weak i am. i woke up around 6pm plus. suddenly my phone rang and i make it silent. i couldnt afford to talked right now cause my throat is just in a bad condition. i'm coughinghard. and "lendeh" is still bothering me. it just hurts. and my nose is just filled up with disgusting fluid. i dont want to speak and use my voice at all. i'm guessing the call is by sarah cause a few seconds later i received a msg frm her. we talk abt tmrw. idk if i'm strong enough for tmrw :l :/ :s :( but i SERIOUSLY WANT TO & NEED TO BUY THAT LEVIS JEANS WITH HER & I FREAKING WANT THAT PUMPHEELS B4 POLY STARTS !! I'VE BEEN EYEING ON THEM SINCE GOD KNOWS HOW LONG AGO!

what have i done to deserve this sickness now. well, with the cherry-on-top, circumstances around me isnt helping at all. not that understanding. hmmmm, i cant wait meeting new people and making new friends. i'm an aries. i simply love starting anew and practically anything that got to do with new beginnings. I LOVE IT. look at my lifestyle/stories and you would have seen it. starting anew especially.

starting anew is always a good thing, its like smwhat throwing away the bad,erasing the negative, start fresh and taking the goods. but sometimes, its not effective. want to know why? Because even though it's starting ANEW, for some people, it'll just go back to where it used to. and the cycle begins all over again. Isn't that brilliant?

so what would happen to them next? well to me, they will suffer the same thing or problem all over again. they will seem miserable cause no change take place. not even a single thing. then all they do is complain complain and complain.

maybe its a personality problem(which = to permanent), or maybe its just a bad day for them so that's why they act weird for that particular day.(which = to temporary) u decide which one you're going to show me. then i infer to myself, are you goin to be like that till the day i die? is that really in ur DNA? or are you gonna change before i die?

if i think you're goin to be like that till the day i die, i will distance myself frm you. then i'll hate you. then it'll be.. urm.. SAYONARA. then after a few months, you will be sad or regret. then maybe you'll miss me. but then i wont miss you. cause my mind is already set to hate you. or maybe you wont miss me. but whatever it is. i'll be thankful & happy cause finally, that person is out of my life, which = to lesser problem in my life. now that's brilliant. (Y)

who's next?

2010-04-06T10:46:00.001-07:00

'' Hey birdie ''

jurong bird park after OJA

i feel like a bird locked in a cage;

only that the cage is my house..

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooouw! its been how many weeks since i last post?

i think 1+. what did i do last week; monday was my birthday.AWESOME. tuesday accompany emma to her job interview.COOL. then stayed at home till SUPER SATURDAY! WUW!

i had a BLAST going out with the awsomefoursome. Including me, it'll become the fantasticfive.

Drama reunion with sarah liyana basil emma was DA BOMB. we talked laughed take lots n loads of pictures posing and basically catch up on each other's life:)))))

pictures will be uploaded later. facebook is being such a @#$%^&*!

stupid. stop giving problem can?

hmm, i sleep late for two or three weeks already.. shit. i didnt stick to my words. idk why i cant sleep when i freakin know its not good to sleep late. cause our body renew/ throw toxin out of the body at night. so whats my problem? is it bcos of that asshole? or me?

i think me.... :/ if i cant sleep, this is what i would probably do.. :

watch channel 5

play with my laptop

watch music video at youtube

chat with ppl at msn

and surprisingly, there's still ppl who are just as awake as i am.

mostly guys in my contact. then there's this guy whom we just start chatting recently.

he is such a bad ass. his first impression on me is out of the world.i was on facebook then he approach by chatting thru there..he said somebody talked about me at their blog, i panicked and was damn worried,"who seyy talked about me? what did i do seyy??"

then he said namer dier fatimah. *insidemyhead* i was like OMG. takkan pasal case sec 1 tu seyy maseh belum lpas lagi? i was just about to start poly want to start a new n a problem is croping up??he asked me to add him at msn quickly cause he wanted to show something.

okay i added him n my heart was racing like hell,

"okay what you want to tell/show me?"he give me the linked and i checked it out.

then i was confused cause the link is an old blog so there's ntg to read.i press the part "blah3 has been moved here" THEN. this creepy disgusting scary looking girl ghost face appeared BIGBIG

and keep screaming ARRRGHHH! ARRRGHHH! ARRRGHHH!!!!!!!

i WAS shocked but i couldnt care cause i die die wanna see a paragraph or text which the owner of the blog would talked about me. so i asked him "maner? takde pon"

he said "huh? k try again. press refresh." and send me the link again and that stupid ghost appeared again. so i was like ... ? huh? "maner? takde pun. when i press muke hantu keluar and its shouting.."

he said "n u don feel aniting? terperanjat or someting?"

"i feel terperanjat gler at first cause the face is scary...... then the screaming continues so i just ignored uh. n my speaker was at loudest so terperanjat uh. what is it that u wanted to tell/show me?"

he said "dat ting lah. hahah. the stupid face n voice."

"TSK!"

he said "datz my motive hahah"

"boo! kurang ajar uh.. ehhhhhhh you made me scared n worried u knw..

when sumbody talked abt me..

i tought ader gang ke ape nk hung ke ape.."

he "hahahahaha"

and that happened TO ME on april fool's day around 2 to 3am. gosh, the day was just about o begin and he's the FIRST person to trick me. grrrrr. we're frm the same school while i'm sec4 he's sec 5. he's handsome but not my kind of preference. then we chat over the next few days and he asked my number. i askesd for his but he said SECRET. wth. i said "boo! not fair. you have mine i dont have yours."

damn it. i regret giving it to him. now is 4:04am, guess who's online?

ASSHOLE. but i dont want to talked to him. as usual his pm is syioksendiri. and dis sec 5 guy is ignoring me when he's the one who start the convo first. crazy boy.

2010-03-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

"Cause i'm leaaaaaving, on a jet plane.."

that's bilah n yana. my younger sisters. okay i wish to go indonesia again this year.. i shud save up money and not spent them.
I want jeans from lunamaya's boutique! :))))

Today went jogging with emma. :D finally, i can do that updown exercise thing, the one that's for your thighs, for 3 whole songs nye duration without stopping.. yayyyy! hooray for meee.^^
Then we jogged, and i was pushing and motivating emma.. she did tried her best and im proud of her. :) GOOD JOB MAMA! :} then we did the waist exercise thingy,the one that moves exactly like a pendulum of a clock. And of course the twist-twist version waist exercise too..

it feels great to do workout. it is said that working out or even walking to your destination will boost your mood. i became hyper..while excercising, i wud sing out loud while emma will be laughing cos i look funny with my semangat-ness by the way i was singing.. HAHAHA x)
hmmm, then that time i told emma, eh lets go indonesia together.. then we'll go SHOPPING! we can get good cheap clothes there. But we got to save our money laa. cause we dont want to burden our parents. Moreover,i just went there last year in december. i was there for three weeks. isn't dat longgggg? luckily i got many relatives staying there, so i can live at their house and they can bring us arounddddd.hmm,gotta work during poly holidays and earn those ka-chingka-chings. :DDD her mum agreed and wud let her go once we have enough money.

i'm so touched and surprised(in a good way) that her mum wud let her go as she trust me.
saturday was FUN hanging out at emma's crib. Friday was not bad as well. When me n emma was walking into the school, students outside the G.O. was staring at us. and i was like..wth? do they even recognise us? i dont think so. well yearh, we're your seniors. but that doesnt mean you should look at us that way. Then mr vincent lim was there, he seems to recognise me. i looked at him and smiled, he said Hello*smiling*. and i replied the same. it just make me excited n smwhat happy to meet the teachers again in adss. then the G.O was quite full with some of the eury boys. i was contemplating weather to just wait outside or go inside.. but whattheheck i just go in anyway. and we waited while each of them had signed the list after collecting their testi n certs.

when come to our turn,no staff approach us. not immediately. but nvm, they're busy. while waiting, suddenly i saw mr neville teo was nearby.. he came towards us to the desk to take smth.
then suddenly he said, Waah, mcm pengatin uh..
i wasnt sure if he's referring to me,the only females was me and emma.then beside us was three chinese boys. i dont know how to react or what to say back as i dont want to be prasan or paiseh, so i just said Good Afternoon...*smiles&knod* hahahaa..

he walked away to continue with his work, i asked and re-confirmed with emma, "eh,dier tadi kate waah mcm pengatin uh kan?" emma A'ah. ikah Dier refferring kat sape sey? aku ke kau? tkkn ms sharifah? haha! aku tau lah dier bru kahwin tapi dier tkde pon. X)

i think and feel that he's referring to me. Cause i did dress up well to look good;) and besides that he often disturb me. Ever since sec three cause im popular for being late often.. :} i miss him scolding and being sarcastic to me! hahaha! he's a scorpio.. no wonder he disturb aries like me n izzati(p.e.time).

then,while we were in the midst of collecting our testimonials n certs, helmi and his friends was waiting outside G.O. i feel akward idk why but then again, i cudnt be bother so i just talked with emma.. Just when i walk out of the G.O, i saw a familiar person. male, from ncc, i didnt wear specs so my vision kind of blur. after squinting for a while then i was confident it was azri coming into the school. Funny that we DID actually ter-serempak with each other cause we were just chatting the day before..

hmm..will becoming back 2school on teacher's day. will see how everybody progresses/changes after being in a different environment..:))))

what am i doing..?

2010-03-24T17:16:00.000-07:00

What am i thinking..?

For the past few days that had gone by.. i feel like a lost-soul-girl. its like.. i know what i already want in my future.. i envision it already. All i have to do now is to work hard and strive my way through achieving it and be successful. :)

then what else do i have to do and plan next?? idontknow. i pretty much get what i wanted already. a laptop,hp,job,salary,new clothes,dearest&nearest,fun times,memories,the course which is a pathway towards my future.. and the rest that i want are just extra stuff.. i need to be happy and thankful for what i have. Sometimes i look like im asking for more but then again,when i look at other ppl and compare with them... i'm like considered lucky and has some advantage. There's this girl whom i envy frm my sec sch, she come frm a rich family, her dad is a boss or supervisor or smth, she always get what she wants.. cool clothes,latest gadgets,expensive make up. then wen i read her blog. its a pity that many ppl dislike her. She used to have a few close frens,fame and all that but now... she seems so negative abt things. When i read her profile, she sound so miserable and upset. Which just shows how much ppl around has been treating her. Im guessing its bad. But oh well, last time i use to hate her for what she did and always do, hoping karma will get back to her. Now that she's like getting it, i smwhat sympathized(imnotsurehowtospell) her.

that time i look at this website frm msn, i think frm lifestyle.. then they said that research have shown that money doesnt make anyone happy. Its meaningful & happy relationships that make us human happy. Regardless weather its love, friendship, colleagues, family.. And yes i can understand why its true... so, when ppl are down or smth, it must be that they dont get the relationship that they wanted or how their special significant didnt treat them the way they wanted, in fact, may hurt and disappoint them. ive been there, and done that. i dont usually cry or breakdown easily. but when i do, its because of these kind of stuffs. Gosh, i cant believe i cried for that jerk. AND, i break down twice or thrice just bcos of him. Which i find it stupid now cause there are many human beings out there, if this one doesnt work, sure the next one will, or the next one, or the next one or.. oh well, there's a soulmate for everyone! dont worry, my time and your time will come... Now its kind of too early n too young to find The ONE. hahah! Now is just for company, adding spice into our life, hoping they'll bring more meanings into it..

so here's some motivational words to cheer you ppl up and perhaps me too,(okay i got to snap out of this.i think my-lost-soul-girl will vanish when monday comes;)

Disappointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Dont stay on the humps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didnt get what you what, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you... ;DDD

When something happens to you,good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, teaching you to laugh more or not to cry too hard... :))))

You cant make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the peson to realize your worth.. <3

When you truly care for someone, you dont look for faults, you dont look for answers, you dont look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults and you overlook the excuses.

Friendship is like wine,it gets better as it grows older.

p/s: but what if you didnt look for the faults but they the ones who causes it? what if it doesnt get better when it IS supposed to?? what if, is just get bad-er?

i cant just ignore and overlook can't i? cause i try perfecting the love i give, then the abuser, whether its my money,time or resources, they just love taking whatever i can give.... :/

Okay simply, dont make me feel as if u are the abuser.Cause i might just give you the in-your-face REPLY. And nobody wants that to happen. SO BE GOOD GIRLS EVERYBODY. (V)PEACE.

I broke my promise~~

2010-03-21T16:07:00.000-07:00

jogging's healthy.. :]]

zaman2 sec two=2oo7 X)

I KNOW.. we look so different right?? HAHAHAHA

oh well.. what do you expect.. kate sec two, mesti ah kental..

lower sec kirekn.. :}

i was looking at my msn hotmail and i didnt realize thr's this old picture i kept.

it was on 26/11/2007.

school term must be over then we, the drama chics would go EXCERCISE or JOGGING at HILL...

GOSH we look so different... but look at everybody now..

each and every one of us had changed so much. SO MUCH.

in a good way of course. both external & internal as well..

and im proud of everyone.(:

hmmm yday went jogging with lisha.

i was shocked to experience how struggling i was trying to complete two whole rounds of running at vista park track w/out stopping. Usually i would feel the tired-ness after running 1.1/2 round,

this time i felt it after running 1.1/8 round. Gee, how disappointing.. but thats what happen if we dont excercise often. i think the last time i excercise was early feb, before the chalet.

So after not running for one month, suddenly my bottom felt extra heavy. But i just move on & keep running. Forcing myself that i can make it till TWO ROUND FULL WITHOUT STOPPING.

And, i did. Pheeww. Thanx to my playlist cause the songs is just so good and fast-beat like motivating me to run.

is there anythg i cn learn frm this? idk. maybe it tells me that it doesnt matter how you start, or how fast or how slow you go..

its how you came up & finish in the end.

yes life is like that. smtimes u feel regret cause u think oh i can do better than this, oh i should have done that, oh i wish i etc.. i wish i wish i wish only.

but there's no action. this suddenly remind me abt my o lvl result. very strange but yearh,

i do feel disappointed n smwhat regret. for my dnt esp. but what the heck,its done.

thr's ntg i cn do abt it. i'll just make noise and punish myself.. then i'll be miserable n may go sot.

haha! sot is the term which me n ma girlfriend often use. to describe ppl. when theyre in that situation.

kay so after running, i wud go to the twist2 part, to urmm.. twist my waist. no girls would like their waist to bcome rectangle. it must always have shape. like hourglass. so i twist n twist n twist as long as five songs nye duration=20mins. then thr'll be cramp around my ribcage area...

hahaha! but nehmind.its okay. no pain no gain pe.. :]

then to the sitting-excercise-machine. Kay idk wat they wud call it but its just an excercise facility whereby u sit then ur leg put smwhr at e front, n u go updown updown with it. so basically it''ll give e strain n pressure n u can feel e muscles in ur thighs n calves working. Ni part paling susah dan mencabarkan. lasttime i can do many reps for 3-songs nye duration. Without stopping. Now? to do for one song pun susah. what happen sia? muscles, can u wake up or not?!?

co-operate with me can? dont be like this}:-l *kayshutupikah,usoundretarded*

i just keep doing n doing n doing till i can atleast do that excercise move without stopping for one whole song. 1st was pitbull room service, then shots , then sky's the limit, next kiss me through the phone. after four songs, i still couldnt do it witout stopping.. haiss.. cause i'd stop for awhile n catch my breath. at e same time. my leg muscles was starting to hurts.

BUT Finally, when e track carry out was playing, then i can do my sitting-updown2-excercise move without stopping for that whole 3:55mins. pheww. what an accomplishment.

kay bedek. last time i can do for three songs without stopping. HAIYAH.

kaylah, i'll warm up and do better than that. so long already didnt excercise. of course uh result like toooooot. then when i go home, shower,pray, then fall asleep. frm 7+pm all e way till 9.30pm. just in time to watch Cinta IXora^^ tu pun maseh mabok2 n mate tk fully open O.O HAHAH!

so im happy that i did work out. i keep to my promise. i shall do that tday also. BUT,

i didnt fulfill and meet my another promise. which is to SLEEP EARLY!!

okay ppl, dont be shocked by what im about to say.. the time n date now is 22march10, 9:02am

and i didnt sleep since cinta IXora!!! another half-and-hour means ive been awake for 12 HOURS. rabak pe.. after watching cinta ixora idk wadehell i do.

i just know that i stayed awake while my sis use my laptop for her sci homework.

stupid, monday skola beh 12am bru nk start? bdh sia. when i was sec 2 even i wasnt that bad.

i wud have start researching at 7 or 8 pm gtu. sec 2 i gd gerl sey. sarah pon. that was my studious year of all. so semangat in every test or homework. then we together2 get good progress award(Y). (me&sarah)

~~as i was saying, stayed awake, then watch america next top model on channel 5, then after that was freaky friday. haha.. so cool... i love that show.. i never get sick n tired of it even though ive watched it many times. then blahblahblah morning routines, and send my youngest sister to her skool. I think after this post,im gonna slp like what idk n waking up in the noon.....

like around 2 or 3pm.:} hehees.

i must sleep early tmrw! at ten or eleven latest. and later i must jog n work out.

kay ikah, stop staying awake n sleep early PLEASE. Poly starting soon and you cant be late for poly cause it'll affect ur grade n assessment! secondary school late nvm, it doesnt interfere n got ntg to do with ur o lvl results. teacher wnt write it on testimonial even cause testi is abt good stuff only... :))) i like what my mdm arfah wrote abt me..

the last sentence which summarize the whole thg, it said..

"This imaginative and resourceful young lady is sure to have a promising future."

so simple and straight to the point. cheyyyy. idk what or how she wrote abt others la but when i read other ppl's one, the sentence & vocab adjectives used are the same.. and repeated.

at first i pity her cause she need to write abt the whole class, 30+ students is alot. i wondered how she cn squeeze her brain n use all the diff type n numerous vocabulary to describe us.

but then i got to know frm one of my dnt teacher that they actually keep a book of the past students records. so all they have to do was just to read n copy paste n choose which sentence to state in the student's testimonial. SHEESH. so easy like that. copy n choose je.

i think words yg laen was like industrilized,intelligence, self-descipline self-motivated to learn etc.. an elaboration which simply just meant that their imagination has been fired up by academic tuition. mine has been fired up. i know education is bloody impt. in singapore they want ur paper qualifications. im stupid to choose to relax n be lazy n do things e last minute.. hahah x)

other ppl study months or at least one month before o lvl exam. i terror, study weeks n even days before e exam. o.O

power kepe. last minute cram de la cram. HAHA.

but i dun think i cn get away if in poly already.... kay, in poly i bcum nerd uh. Friends with nerd also. Dont want to fren with fashionista. Later my mind will be distracted n my focus will be altered. dont want n dont wish that to happen. Nerd mostly are kind, ive not seen the bully kind but ever seen the selfish one. i friend with the helpful generous one. then we excel together. (Y)

2010-03-20T12:05:00.000-07:00

That time i took a quiz on fb, it was; Are you getting enough sleep?

And my result was i get TOO MUCH sleep. and i find it true. i do sleep too much.
my sleeping hours is bad. Ever since graduation day, i sleep very late. VERY.
i fall asleep earliest at 2am. then i'll end up waking up at 1pm or 2pm..... (which is equal to 12hrs of sleep= too much)
Now is already march(my bday month;), with this new lappy.. i'm sleeping wayyyyy later..
like around 5 or 6am. there's one time it was at 12noon then only i fall asleep. Then i'll wakeup at 2 or 3pm. Gosh, this is bad.
i should stop this habit. Poly starting in april, so i got to train waking up early. like around 9 or 10am.

During these holidays, its either im working or stay at home or go out. But mostly i stay at home.
And what can we do by staying at home?? nothing much.
even the internet doesnt help. its still BORING. and im getting heavier. that scares me....
i may look the same but i really am getting heavier.. :( im so sad & devastated by that fact.
Okay, starting from tday, i will sleep early. no, wait, i MUST sleep early. and exercise everyday at vista park. I GOT TO LOSE THOSE EXCESS WATER N WEIGHT FRM MY BODY. its very bad for my health,
yes i maybe tall, but i cannot let my weight reach till the last two digit of my height which is 162.
my weight got to be ten or twelve less difference with my last-two-height digit number.
if its over or reach 62, that means im in trouble. :o
AND I DONT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN.

so c'mon ikah!! work out more and sleep early!! i know you can do it!! *cheeringownself*

hmm, then recently. some ppl piss me off. they way they say and do things. like omg.
unbelievable. how dumb and stupid can they be man. its the stuff that its easily avoided, so for nothing they made me angry pissed mad like @#!$%!^&*#$%!!
haiyo. they dont know anything, then act as if they know.
hah. gasak kau laa nak.
tengok lah sape yg btol nanti.

only WE, know the truth. only ME & MY SISTER know which's real and which's fake.
so its okay. we'll see how it turns out later..
dont be disappointed if things dont turn out the way you expected.
cause i already said. AND, I ALREADY ASKED.
so if you trust and believe that person so much, that you buy their words.
then i pity you my fren. cause that person is saying that just to please you.
asal boleh ckp, asal boleh layan, without even asking h** friends.

i wish i could tell you in person, but i cant cause i already promise someone not to tell. you dont believe what i said. you dont trust my judgement since the very beginning. me and my sister aka sarah wont lie.just bcos that person says so, you think its true? up to you lah eh.

one of the "XYs" said, " kalau plan
go ahead ah
but dont get mad wen the response expected isnt well"

anyway, goodluck in everything. hope it'll be a success. after what happened between the ram and the lion, im not interested to go.

nak buat,berani ckp lah.

c'mon give me your best shot. prove me wrong gyrls.

i've been giving & doing & helping too much, so now i wanna let YOU take the lead.

what appears to be somebody else's promise, was fulfilled by another person's action.
hah. WOW. U'RE SUCH A CHAMPION. im not asking for credit, but pleasee laa..
the very least you can do is treat me accordingly.
everytime when devil hit you,
you bcome kookoo for all the wrong reasons & acting like @#!$%!^&*#$
which basically & simply tells/show me that u're unappreciative and tak tau diri, and tak tau malu!

sedar lah diri siket eh? sebelum perkara benar dan dalam bocor. nampak je sweet alrite tu semuwer tapi takde bende pon yg boleh diharapkan!

yearh,im the bad one. often appears too agressive. brash or whatsoever but i admit and i know myself lah. i know where i stand uh. unlike some ppl.

"ckp je byk, tapi tk jalan." like one of my bestfren said.
aku ni, ckp byk tapi still jalan ah... tak mcm kau.

ape kau bleh buat ah? sini ah tunjuk uh.

my laptop advice:D haha!

2010-03-11T05:40:00.000-08:00

HELLOE HELLOE PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

WOW. this is so random of me to blog. Cause its been ages since i last blog-ed.. hehees :}
well.. thats bcos im busy or working or simply not interested to post.
Now that i have my OWN LAPTOP,(like finally) i can do W H A T E V E R I W A N T ! !
~~~WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *smileswidely*

gosh i cant believe this thing is actually mine & mine only.. :))
Thank you berry much daddy for buying me this. i simply love it!
this lappy is so COOL. the disc thingy can take out then i cud put the extra extended battery cells. its lightweight. its my lucky colour. the specs is just freakin awesome.....

Okay, my part-time job is laptop-promoter for sony vaio. i started since nov last year.
its not fixed n my location changes..
sometimes at IT shows, courts or bestdenki.
the pay i get is good. i actually intend to work at jurongbirdpark.
they accept me but until today, they didnt email a duty timetable or smth.. STUPID.
jbp sucks. im so angry n pissed with them. }:-l

but its okay, i learn to like my laptop promoter job and the pay is much better than jbp.
moreover i get commission. :} ka-ching.ka-ching. WUW!

soooooo, i feel guilty cause i didnt buy a vaio laptop wen im a promoter of that brand.
i bought smth better, i bought fujitsu... :DDD

To those ppl who are buying laptops, i tell you, the top three brands are FUJITSU,SONY VAIO & iMAC or apple whatever.

the rest are not reliable... im a promoter,i talked with other promoters and so i know..
Like SERIOUSLY..

ACER especially. The courts ppl told me, THEY THEMSELVES SAY,
acer is the top-selling-brand,(cause its cheap) BUT its also the brand that easily spoiled n give lots of problem...
my workfren;syafi,b4 he was a promoter, he worked at sim lim tower to repair laptops..
and ACER BRAND WAS THE MOST THAT NEEDS TO BE REPAIRED...
other brands only one or two, acer was like eight to ten piled up...

toshiba is also no good.gateway as well.compaq is also not good.

hmm,if u guys have budget and need to buy the less costly ones,
asus,dell,n hp is ok. But when i compared the prices of those three to vaio...
u only add a few hundreds only and u can get a good branded one like vaio.
vaio is for status-seekers, bcos of its design & the many colours it offers n choice available... :))

thats what i love abt vaio. i actually want a red laptop,e CWseries but its 2.4kg whch is quite heavy.
mine now is only 1.8kg..its the lightweight series for fujitsu n it says its all time favourite
so naturally it appeals to me..k lol.

hmmm i got to take care of this new baby..its so precious. F i n a l l y .....

no mre quarrelling with my siblings nor scolding mum nor argueing nor waiting to take turns whenever i want to use the laptop & play e internet!!

cause i have my own! gosh im so glad n thankful.
Thanks daddy.<3 i love you! (: ive always preferred you..

well,i am daddy's gerl..hehees. unlike my siblings, they're all gerls but they dont even give present or even a card on his bday... tsk3. What kind of daughters are they. well except for lisha cos she's still young. SHEESH!

despite me reminding and advicing them, all fell on deaf ears..

okay,i think im gonna end here. i want to do some other stuff..
till i update again readers...

byeeeeeeeee,tc. (:

2009-10-01T08:19:00.000-07:00

VERY VERY VERY TIRED & DRAINED OUT OF ENERGY!
BUT ENJOYED MYSELF ON 30TH SEPT:}

going out & getting to know & made new friends. :)

Just us GeeeRLS! :DDD

Wacky poses everyone! ;)

Diyanah! :))

Look at his stupid face.. haha!

Whoaaa, today i was late again..
i am and was so exhausted due to yesterday. going out raya with them was weird at first
cause i dun really know them. At sch, i dont usually hang out with them even though
i do see their familiar faces everyday,

it was such a sweet & sour experience..
actually hisbullah ajak to come his house but i was very late as i come out of the house late.
then iffah was already complaining and felt embarassed. But i was more embarassed.
We somewhat regret taking the bio test cause it took most of our time....
if only we didnt take the test, we would already reach at clementi on time..
besides that, the 913 bus was damn late. like half an hour.
$%&*@#. waste time. should have walked to admiralty seyy.. tsk.
felt bad cause it was hisbullah's mom birthday..his mother cook already.. :l
what a coincidence, his mother has the same birthdate as my father..
Lol. hmmm, three of them are libras.. zzzzzzz.

my journey with iffah was so irritating. Frm admiralty, to chua chu kang, to admiralty, then to woodlands.. fuh.
at admiralty, sat at mc donald for a while and we were disturbed by this stupid guy at the counter.. he keep repeating "selamat hari raye" and "assalamualaikum"...
iffah was smiling cos its so weird n akward n sungguh tk perlu. i too grinned but couldnt be bother by him.
so i take out my hp and started talking as if there's somebody on the other line..
Iffah was laughing like hell cos i was really speaking like as if it was my bf on the other line.. hahahahaha!
after doing this...the stupid irritating annoying guy kept quiet and stop disturbing us. :)

then i got a call from sarah.. she told me abt smth and its regarding to saturday.
the situation is complicating and difficult for almost all of us. i hate it actually cause it involved with ___________________________.
someppl dont like this, most ppl dont like that n some are neutral..
we were like assessing and figuring out what to do cause really, its a situation that can make u stuck and lost.
Although most already made their stand and decision.. the others are difficult as they are the middle person..

i dont know what's gonna happen on saturday but dont blame us if u dont enjoy urself cos we wont be enjoying either.... there's a chain reaction effect.
the safetest bet? majority shud win. standard uh.

today is a sad day for my scorpio darlings..hidayah and iffah.
hidayah had just lost her beloved cat who is already like her adek...
there's no other cats that can replace polo(his name)... :(
i hope the person who killed polo will suffered a terrible mishap one day.
bloody *&%$#@! stooopid. drive pon tk pass siol.... hit and run pulak tu..Nb.

iffah on the other hand had alittle conflict with 'ching!'.
because of him,it triggers iffah to become moody and emotional..
then iffah got carried away and too overwhelmed by all kinds of thoughts and emotions..
she worried if all of those who are already close to her are gone..
she will really miss them. she is even counting down the number of days...:/
relax iffah, we are still young and will always be there for you.. :))_

delusional aka sarah :D didnt come to school as she was sick... :(
wat the docter said is so serious and worrying....
i hope its not gonna be real and not a too serious case... :S
sarah, take care of your health properly.. i dont want you to be sick nor lose you ehh....
no taking not-healthy food ah! }:-l :) must take vitamins, and watch what you eat now....
dont want to make the condition worse. if can, just maintain low level or better, make the problem gone! ;)

hmmm, idk if i can go out raya-ing on friday. which is later today... :/
i really dont know.. i go out on wed already,which is yesterday then the big one is later on saturday...so...
haiyaaa see what the others say/decide lah..

kay,i shall stop here.
feeling sleepy already.
byeeee! tc readers!

p/s: i miss that edward cullen. :[ i hope i get to see/ter-serempak with him on saturday.. :/
i really hope and wish to see him. :)

2009-09-19T07:46:00.000-07:00

Berlalu lah sudaah ramadhan.. Sebulan berpuaasaaa...^^

:DDD hahahaha! :))

YAYYY! bsok rayeeee! ~WEEEEEEEEEE...
excited nyer aku? haha!
This is the time of the year to be happy ppl.....FOR ME especially..hahaa..
hmmm, i miss all the kuih raye..ketupat..dressing up exclusively.. nk glamour2 kirekan? FUH.
ohhhhhhh and especially getting & collecting zakat frm older ppl....hahaha! (if you know what i mean...)

hehees :} anywayss, its the time to celebrate. but i guess i cannot be too happy & relax too much..
planning not to celebrate much... nvm.. still got next year..and next year.. and next year.. and so on..... :)

but the good feelings, genuine warmth and raye spirit is all around me.... so strong.. hahaa! :DDD
And i cant stop singing lagu raye.... kuat2 pulak tu.. X) hahahahaha!
now is also the time to forget & forgive other ppl's wrong doings. yeahhh,shud forgive them..... :l :]
but some difficult to forget cause its too much... nie yg bangse case utk orang yang tak tahu malu nyer,
tak tahu sedar , takkan taubat dan takkan berubah nyer... so nk mintak maaf pun buat ape. buang mase jer..
anyway, i'm the type who cepat sedar nyer.. buat salah minta maaf.
tak mcm org laen, ego sebesar-besar nyer beh tak nk kalah...haha. kesian org2 mcm gini.
dont want to acknowledge their fault or mistake. kalau boleh nk blame org, bkn dier.
SEBAB KNAPE? sebab dier ingat dieeerrrr jer yang betol. org laen yg salah..
eh iffah? eh hidayah? sofia? sarah pon shud knw? emma pon tau kan?

hahaha! kay, hrp2 korg tau lah aper aku maksud.. kalau tk sure takpe... tapi shudnt be uh sebab korang selalu by my side.. i always talk to you guys and tell wat i feel...
And i want to take this chance to say dat i love you guys sooo much! thanks for being there for me.. :)
aku sayangggggggggg korang! <3 muacks! *blow kisses* :))

Khas untuk darlings/nearest/dearest/ dan girlfriends ku....
minta maaf kalau aku ader buat salah kat korg.
aku tk bermaksud nk hurt ur feelings, buat korg marah or even kurang ajar kat korg..
Maaf sbb kadang2 aku terkasar bahase or kacau korg...
aku ni kalau bebual asl bleh jer kdg2. hahaa!
though at times gurau2 ni cn hurt each others feelings...i hope u guys wont take them too hard..
cos kte nie bergurau-gurauan utk lebih bermesra dgn each other....kan kan kan? :)
anyway.. from the bottom of my heart. i love you guys despite of your flaws. Thanks for accepting/loving me despite of my flaws too.. :]

awww man. am i ready for next week?getting prelims result back? i rili hope i am. and i'm sooooo gonna miss my edward cullen.:( also known as mr russia which me n hidayah came up with the name.. teehees. X)

i think i wont update already after a long time..
i think o lvl is in what? 1mth 2wks away? (except o lvl sci prac)..
so...yearh..

Hmm, OKAY! i shall stop here........
wanna do smth else pulak...
tc readers! happy (short)holiday! hahaa :)

kay, bye....

peace y'all..
loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
ikahh.

2009-09-03T06:50:00.000-07:00

Whoa, maths was like.... kay,idk. howto say this..
imagine my answer was like the picture above.... hahahahaha!
dat wud be sooo siak to the marker.

i find the paper hard plus okay. i can do most of them but the rest semuwer susah and merepek. Hmph!
so angry at myself... shud have practice mooooore! :DDD

anyway,its done. will have maths remedial during the sept "holiday" to catch for maths paper 2.
Mr chong!! teach us properly and alot ohkay?? we need help...

tmrw is geog and chem and i'm so dead cos i havent revise much. Urgh!
alaa, tawakal uh. da solat terawih tadi...
will just do my best..amin.

hmmmm, i should say this.. Mr Russia is soooooo much better than P even though both of them are of the same signs. ^^ hahaa ;)

luckily the object of my affection is a patient soul.... but still, i cannt be too happy.
o level ehh this year. if heart broken, wah, affected uh..

kay,i shall end here. my sis da bising. hmm,k lah.

Bye!

ps: i feel the same way too actually but its hard for me to say it. :l

2009-08-07T01:59:00.000-07:00

Wild&Wacky or Cool&Composed?? :/

hmm,sometimes i get stuck between the two.
when i go out or something, i will contemplate whether to go crazy so i can have extra FUN or
just remain cool and calm and sophisticated???

last time like few years ago i was soo obsessed trying to be 'cool'...
and it doesnt get me anywhere... i dont see whats the "good" in being cool...
moreover, its hard trying to be cool.
its worse if ur trying to be cool tak menjadi...hahaha. ohmy...
imagine that.FUH.it would be so damn weird and (bad) funny.

being wild&wacky does get me smwhr.
i'll be making my friends laugh. smiling with them till we
thought our face would crack. laugh till our sides hurts.
i looooove making my dearies & sweeties laugh.
It makes me happy to see them happy. it makes times being 2gether sweeter & memoriable.
infact, i think i'm heaps happier wen i'm being wild & wacky & goofy.
~wooooooo.
random jokes would pop out of nowwhere. hahaha.
i'm a crazy girl i admit.and i'll try to spread and make my troops crazy too.

hmm, i miss school alot lastweek. didnt come on wed,thur,fri& this week monday.
whoaa,the sick was terrible. i was so w e a k and dizzy and coughing hurts.
go to clinic also full. end up nid to go at night. luckily didnt go polyclinic cause mom said there lagi ader byk orang line up.huuu, berjam-jam if i were to got there. i think its the musim already ah, ppl falling sick.
some will recover fast, while some needs more time like me and hidayah.
hmmmmmm, got to take care n monitor our health closely. prelims are near.
cant afford to fall sick again. how i wish we all can wear mask to school. 8-/
so the germs cnnt pass easily. haiyaaaa.

didnt go to school today.hehees. so bad right? me,sarah,hidayah n sofia bersepakat.
yeah i miss the potential fun that we cud be having at school. but nvm. too tired to singsing all that.
anyway,got no lesson. so yearh...

it feels great to recover from sick. when i came back to school, i had loads of fun with awesome ppl. sarah,iffah,hidayah,sofia,syafirah. :) ader jer jokes n ppl to make fun of...
especially sarah n syafirah. they and their new heartthrob, mr alistair lam. tk habes2.
hahahaha :DDD
they made my week.

haissss,tmr got tuition. and numerous homework nid to be completed. i hope i can finish them :l
i hope i can go out soon. sofia want to go out on her birthday.
we shud have an outing soon but not sure where to.... :/

okay. till here then. i dun noe wat else to talk about....
tc ppl!

to that someone3: omg. didnt you get it? jgn prasan lah. i'm so over it okay? stop it sak. whatever u're doing and thinking or even acting like , sungguh tak perlu. go die.

to someone with the twin signs: whatever u're doing, please dont try and do it again cause i dont like it. really. i hope that'll be the last time okay. i'm sure u're not the kind of person that mess things up and end up doing things wrong. just dont. i beg you. just focus on ur life and i'll do the same with mine.

Testing 123 testing..

2009-08-07T00:21:00.001-07:00

okay. random. pardon me.

2009-07-25T10:23:00.000-07:00

I am better off being with happy & stress-free ppl,thoughts && situations. :DDD

*strumminghard*

kay prasan. hahaha :}

i soooo

need guitar lessons after o level. ;)

meet Rebecca, a beginner for playing guitar..

isn't she adorable??

love her long curly hair. :)

Ikahh and Rebecca...
ehhh,it rhymes..haha.

Whoaaaaaa, its been quite sometimes since i last update my blog. today is random. just feel like it.

Anyway, i dont update much because i'm too busy and ibu is not being co-operative whenever i want to use it.

Haiyaaaaaaa, Prison Break finish alreadyyyyyy! SO SAD! Michael Scofield die..... :'((

i merely cry cos its not the way i want it to end. Not happy ending. HMPH! BUT still, they're free.

they're finally free.:))

And during that period of prison break season and after it, it made me realize that it is better to be on our own cause really, you cannot trust people. Some people are just plain blind, stupid and cruel. i dont trust ppl anymore. i give up. Except for a few, who are my dearies & love ones. :))

And to emma, sorry hari tu i kind of doubt you. Stupid thinking of mine. :}

Anyway, rebecca's hair is really nice. i really like the colour. And it is so embarassing that she knows how to play the guitar while i dont. she's 10, i'm 16?? if she is a beginner then i what seyy?? :/ and *sajerrr je ikah pinjam guitar orang laen?* hahahaha XD i didnt bully her, i make friends with her. :)

Hmm, got a text msg frm sarah today. Wah, shocking man. I was speechless. But nvm, its good. So i can hop hop and ***. 8-) thanks for informing me girlfriend.^^

To that someone3: you are so dumb and mysterious and stupid and merepek and *idunnoewhatelsesoinsertsownwords* and most importantly, prasan.

same thing same tricks. you thought far beyond wrong. really wrong. so you can seriously stop it and go

h o m e.

naseb i havent do anything stupid. infact, i did nothing. phew. let's ignore & forget all the way and that nothing ever hapens. :)

p/s: there's a conflict btwin ur head n ur heart.

till i am rajin and free again to update,

byeeeee.:DD take care.

p/s: okay iffah n aisha, i'll join the next time there is WASABE CHALLENGE. hehees. X)

2009-06-29T08:23:00.000-07:00

Slaaaaamat haaaariiii jaadiiiii! slaamat haaaariii JADI! ^^

yehhhhhhh! Sarah's finally sixteen already! wuhuuu~ (;

so all same already, refering to me, liyana,& emma.
hmmmm,but soon emma will be wiser,[; in a few months time. hehe..

aiyah, i want to put funny cute picture of sarah or just a picture but cannot..
wat is wrong with the internet lah?
stupid. try many times but still cant. haiz... ):

Bestie, happy burf dae once again! jgn notti notti ehh? da besar kan? hahaha. Love you loads sarah! <3 (;
hope it will be A .......

S W E E T S I X T E E N
year for you! :DDD

p/s: sorry bcos pressie will be late..... }:

glad u liked the card though. [:

okay,i shall stop here.
till i post again.
byeeeee. (:

p/s: just wondering. What are they really like underneath the plastic persona?

2009-06-12T04:57:00.000-07:00

Once in a Life time Experience, in SHANGRI-LA HOTEL and RESORTS. :)

Thumbs up!

Cool pool..... 8-]

what a breath-taking scenery..

floating dead sisters.
hahahahaha. X)
kidding.

Yana:ikah look at ibu's wild pose...
Ikah: omg ibu... tsk,how can i pose with water at my face??

after swimming..

Cheeseeeeeeee. :}

...mari rewang makan

Happy Advanced Birth Day Cik Shida!!!

FUH! What a great time i had on tuesday & wednesday!! I wish to experienced it again in the future. (if possible) somehow, someday...^^
My aunt get to stay at the hotel/resort free as her company is the one hu pays 4 the rooms.
she invite my family if we want to sleep there..
Me and my siblings was very jakon with the hotel.
We may never get to stay/come again and be pacified by the serene world Shangri-la offered.
especially after knowing it is a well known hotel that cost $1000 per night ! 8-o

we didnt want to leave yet on wednesday night...but it was my aunt's last day.
Got to check out the next day, straight away to airport & back to dubai where she works.

Didnt go for dnt on wednesday,thursday and today... (so bad right?got something else going on what....)
bcos i want to swim n experience the hotel,
bcos i want to send my fav aunt off and say the last goodbye at the airport,
and today, bcos i am lazy and tired....
and so the three dnt girls didnt go for dnt after agree-ing 2gether & berpakat. hehees:]

whoaaaaaaa, it's been ages since i last went swimming.
So when i got back to the pool,all my swimming skills was gone and is kekok.... w e i r d. tk biase...cacat sak.... cant even swim that far and hold my breath.
but it was very fun wen i force myself to touch the surface of a 2.5m deep pool.
scary.....but exciting.^^ what a stupid & fun challenge i made to myself n my sisters...

hmmm, friends went out together to library or something...without me.
bcos they thought i got dnt...
but it's okay. Cause i wont be able to go either even if they did ajak me.
I, myself got smth going on so yearh.... No worries you guys. ;)

I find the carpet cool..... everyday change to the date it is... :)

Till i update again viewers..
tata..

2009-06-08T07:28:00.000-07:00

Happy belated 16th birth day fiona. :)

sorry for this late wish.

A year older means a year wiser.

Hope that you will be happy in your life,

may good luck follow where ever you go..

and you are always wished for the best. :]

yours sincerely,

ikahh.

2009-06-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

YAYYYYY! LIYANA SIXTEEN ALREADY! :DDD

Ahahaa!,sarah odd one out. X) hehehe.. :)

"Seconds hours so many daaays... I know what i want but how long can i waaiitt... Every moment last foreeveer, when you feel you've lost your way.."

Awww man. the song No boundaries is stuck in ma head...
so nice and addictive... :)

I agree with sarah..its the best song that american idol had made for t h e winner..... kris allen^^

whoaaaaaaaa. feel exhausted like almost everyday in the first week of 'JUNE holidays'
luckily got gerek hilarious people like sarah,surti, iffah n aihar a.k.a azhar... along the way so the energy is still there.. keeping things fun.

the name is changed to aihar cause mr edwin teo cannot read nor understand azhar's hand writing...
the 'z' is like 'I'...
And so...... teacher had called him aihar ever since that day..
hahahahaha XD

hmmmm, got numerous homework to be done during the 'holidays'.....
FUH. how in the world am i gonna cope???
ya allah, tolong beri hambamu yg lemah ini tenaga dan kekuatan...
dan semoga hamba ini akan mendapat keputusan yg baik utk prelim dan 'O' level...
Amin.

haiyaaaaa. my dnt some more.. need to fast-forward and catch up.
i want to cheer myself.. GO IKAHH! I KNW U CAN DO IT!! WOO!WOO!
jia you...(kay idk how to spell)

Anywayssssss, later got tuition.
weekend, it'll be fiona's birthday...
hmm,wonder how she's doing..

and to Liyana, sorry no pressie babe.. :(
my finance is tight nowadays...
hope the year ahead will be more bold, brighter, and beautiful for you!
You are a great & strong person, know that you're always wished for the best.^^
love, ikahh :) <3.

You're the L to the I, Y, A the N the A
And ain't no other datin put it down like y o u.
You're Datinlicious.(its hot,hot!) ;DDD)

2009-05-18T06:52:00.000-07:00

Girls just wanna have Fu-nn... Ouhh, girls just wanna have fu-unnnnn!lovely peoples :)

if only my hair is like that everyday..

yeahh,like tot-ally...

EMMA! :DDD

....under her
umbe-re-lla ;)

promoting Milk Tea anyone?

BOO SARAH!;)
(dun cover ur face next time)

way to go emma!

goofy-ing around.. :P

they rock my world!..<33

its so hard to get a perfect jumpshot.

pancet already..

wacky faces everyone.

FINALLY!
jumping with joy with HER! :DDD

2009-04-22T04:43:00.000-07:00

Just feel like updating today MANN! ;DDD

*SPEECH DAY!*

this is the SECOND TIME we achieve an

award TOGETHER. :-o :DDD ;)

Charlie's Angels. :)

kay,prasan.

hahahaha XD :]

S A R A H :DDD <3

mari bersembang....

nyehehheh...

my favourite contact lense colour...

PERKY BROWN!!!!!

(HIDAYAH!tolak mascot per? hahahahaXD

kurang ajar eh :P :))

SPEECH DAY was nerve-wrecking,exciting,scary,fun,shocking,entertaining and A GREAT EXPERIENCE I'LL NEVER FORGET!

thank you everybody for attending it although it was very boring and long with all the lengthy speeches made by numerous people. The dance club and wushu made it fun and entertaining. Thanks you guys for all ur efforts & practices! ;) appreciate it very much.^^

hmm.... saturday was great. I really enjoyed myself:) thank you sarah & hidayah for making it a wonderful outing.:DDD

Okay, so finally followed & did that someone's footstep. hmmm. No comment. Hah. (:

Feel heaps better.

Now i know how she and he felt,and what these ppl actually meant.

Things happen.

And aku da tak larat. Tak kuase. Aku pasrah,frm the bottom of my heart.(:

Blahblahblahblahblahblahblah.

And so... The lesson of the day is..

kerana mulut,(in this case tangan), badan binasa. As well as baik membawa resmi ayam

betina.

Okay ppl? This goes to everyone including myself.:]

NAPHA or is it NAFA?? ah whatever today was urmm..okay i guess. well i fail my standing broad jump. Couldnt even get 1 point...how terrible. But nvm, re-take then re-take uh. Dun care.... The rest was okay, some station i get 5 pts,4pts blah blah blah yada yada.. hmm.(:

Mid-year is around the corner , got to, and must work hard...

got to force myself. STUDY IKAH!!

will not be updating much i guess. Or as usual... tk blog slalu pon. hahahaha!

Kay, take care readers!

byeeeeeeee! :D

2009-04-13T22:50:00.000-07:00

littlelittle nonsense,becomes attitude problem?ehhh?

helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooowellowwwwwwwwww!
its been a long time since i last blogggg...
bcos i'm busy,too tired, lazy, cudnt care to blog...oh && also bcos of my mother...
so....stingy i wud say... but still love her..
though i said i hate her. But NO, i actually do love her.(:
sayanggggggg mummyyyyyy.

i feel evil today. don't know why but i feel evil today, bcos i remember,reflect,imbas kembali
of all the things that i've done, doing, and potentially may do in the future.....
*reflectsagain* yup, i'm evil.

I am so so so so terribly sorry if you think i'm evil and being mean to you....
but that's what you get if i can't take it anymore, and when i menyampah already.
Maybe there's something wrong with you but maybe not.
But whatever it is..... i am sorry for my wrong doings. Sorry. That's all i could say.
Terribly sorry.

Aries would shut someone out if that someone did something wrong which is unforgivable or unacceptable. (Sorry, i couldn't help it). Sometimes they might regret for doing this as its too brash&impulsive, but sometimes its worth it as its for the better.
Aries have no problem starting new relationships, and are able to let go of connections that no longer serve them.

So that's partly about an Aries...
There's more... there's definitely more.. and this goes to all other signs too....

Oh, and byebye. Thanks for all the lovely memories. It was a really roller-coaster ride being with you. You are a wonderful person too. (: All the best in everything that you do.

2009-03-29T06:16:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTH DAY NUR 'AMIRAH BTE JAMALUDIN!
you are a very sweet,kind,generous, lovable person && you're
the best adek angkat i've ever had.^^
Thank you berry much for the lovely necklace.
Appreciate it very much!
I LOVE YOU LOADS! (:

To everybody, THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY WISHES!!
APPRECIATE IT LOADS! (:
SYG KORANG!!!!!

Today has been great, i am very touched by the many wishes i get
frm numerous ppl.
Surprisingly, i get frm london weight management, new york skin solution
and even l'oreal beauty ambassador.
hahahahahahaha.lol.:D

kay,i dont want to write much now.
so that's all folks.
byeeeeeeee!

2009-03-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

Dreams have offered you some amazing insight on the questions you've been struggling over, but whether or not you utilize that insight is up to you. You're feeling a little bit paralyzed and not ready to move ahead, especially armed with nothing more than information created by your subconscious mind during the middle of the night. That's okay, though -- do not move forward with anything unless you are completely convinced it's the right thing to do. It's okay to ignore your dreams.

(horoscope for today.)

hmmmmmm,i guess this is the reason why i am not doing much for my dnt although i should start already.....
hehees.(:
Dont worry,i'm not that far behind.
Unlike some ppl i knw in my class.

Ehhhhhhh,ITS REALLY amazing how the horo knows what i'm FEELING.....

its SCARY,yet AMAZING & I'M FACINATED!^^
well,have always been..

sial lahh...its true dat i'm not ready to move ahead.
and also that i'm a bit paralyzed....
i want to move forward and move on but i'm not fully
convinced yet.
Cause i dont know what i should do next...
What is the next step?
the right one..
regardless my dnt,and others,etc etc etc......

hmmmm,got to let my mind wonders for now....
till its truly focus and knows exactly what i want.:(
I've never been in situation like this....
what the hell has got into me sey...urghh!
i've always been the one that knows what to do,after this,then that,
then it goes on and on.
Very clear cut,direct,and quick when it comes to anything that got
to do with decision.

i wonder which planet is in my sign now...:/
i think its pisces..
ruled by the Planet Jupiter(luck) & Neptune(illusions)

KAY,let me check....
hmmmm,YUP. definitely.it says...
Moon in Pisces unites with red Planet Mars....

well i'm Aries,ruled by the planet Mars(passion).

TSK. EH MOON IN PISCES? CAN GET OUT OFF
MY SIGN OR NOT? MOVE TO OTHER SIGN CAN?
CAUSE REALLY,YOU MAKE ME,& MY MIND MULLING OVER THINGS.

2009-02-15T01:05:00.000-08:00

Asal ni skarang?? kau pissed sangat ngan aku...
Yelah, i'm in the wrong.... You're always the right one kan?
kau pissed ngan aku,kau tak happy ngan aku...da tak suke aku lagi ...fine.
Hah.
so much for...."ATIKAH, I know that our friendship is stronger than before.
And I know right now, there’s nothing such as a third party that can split us.
Though at times, I get all crappy rappy, you still understand.
& I love you, ‘cos you are the special wecial person you are.
*big bear hug*"

guess i'm not the person you claim/thought i would be...take back your words.
i had disappoint you right?

hmmm...
-had save her relationship with that guy twice
-borrow her my cosmetic so she'll look even more gorgeous for her date
-borrow her my hair-straightener...
-let her come to my house so she can do her project

and the list can go on..

This is not bestfriend attitude??? Oh yearh lah, this is called thoughtless,selfish and not caring attitude...
hahahaha, you're welcome kim(:

you're pissed just because of one incident that i was not there to comfort/ask you??
WOW.can't believe one setback can outweigh the many other good deeds.
haiz...i failed as a bestfriend ppl,coz what i've done never seem to be enough..

its not dat i dont care or sengaje...i was busy.
My bad for not chasing after you.
and HTH i want to approach you when you buat muke??
You didnt even look at me nor give me eye contact.
and you pushed me away...
do you know that it really hurt me?
Speaking of dont wanna lose another friendship and that sarah & kim still loves me?
hah,no.I think kim hates me,despise me cos she seems to be so angry at me.
she's not going to talk to me even.Heh.
fine then.

Sial ah,nak ckp orang takde bestfriend attitude... tengok dulu ah sebelum ckp...
siape yg berhutang budi siape ni skarang?

skarang relax dulu ah eh?
fikir baek-baek.

Tsk.Humans are such.
will look at one little mistake and forgets the rest that you've done for them.
haiz...
so sad right :(

(p/s:what's with the person A sial?what exactly did A do that pisses you off? cos it seems like she's too stupid to knw herself..can you tell it more clearly?)

2009-01-09T01:23:00.000-08:00

Yooooooooooooooooooooooooooo PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

watssuppppp.......??

OMG.

its been ages since i last blog........
thats because i am grounded...... :(

my hp was confiscated,i cannot use the internet unless there's a project.....
this is all because of my hp bill that is over $200 but less than $300...
haiz.....
so sad....

Anyway......
now is 2009.... 'o'-level yearrrr!!! *hargh*(gasps)

i'm scared....... :/
am i ready for it?
or not?

whatever it is... I should give & try my best in everything that i do...
at the end of the day,i should know whether i've tried my best or not.....

because WHAT we learn at school, are facts, known facts.

Our job at school is to accumulate & remember facts.

The more we can remember,

the better we do.

Those who fail at school are not

interested in facts;or maybe the

facts are not put to them

in a way they find interesting.

Some people simply don't have a

great faculty for memory.

It doesn't mean they are stupid.

It means their imaginations hasn't been

fired up by academic tuition.

People who are conventionally clever

get jobs based on their qualifications(the past),

not on their desire to succeed(the future).

Very simply,they get overtaken by those who

continually strive to be better than them.

As long as the goals are there,

there's no limit to anyone's achievement. :)

chey...berbual speaking sey...

hahahahahaha, kay no.

so...everyone should not give-up kay?

hmmm. :)

i think i can't blog much anymore... graduating class, wud be very busy mah.....

(project lah,homework lah, revision lah & etc.......& frankly speaking,i'm not good at

handling nor concentrating many stuff like other ppl,they're superrrr,but not me)

now is just the first or second week of school and i'm already so busy.....

whats more in the future??

definitely more busy than now.....

my energy has been sucked up... i mostly feel tired and stress everyday....

at times....i'm sad,depressed,angry,blahblahblah and others you can think of....

what else do i want to say?? *scratchhead*

hmm.

to that someone; for goodness sake,i hope you'll change. if not,i guess i won't help you anymore or even have any connection with you. cause i cannot help you if u're not helping yourself...

to that someone2; sorry for whatever i did..i'm not perfect. u know i cant please everyone. i'm in a difficult situation....thats why i ever said i don't like odd numbers.. yup, i'm stupid,bad,mean,thoughtless,careless,rude,unfair, and everything you think of..idk what i'm doing. i am seriously lost right now. if things are goin to be akward.....i think i shud stay away because i know i'm at fault. you can hate me all you want. s o r r y.

to that someone3; stop starring at me will you? because your starring kills and its scary. i feel very UNCOMFORTABLE OKAY??!!?? dont be an asshole lah.. i got nothing to do with you already right? yearh,i ever like you.. so what? but that was last year man... Da lah... stop it ah... urghh!

fffhew,now i feel a lil' better :]....let it all out..

but still feel disturbed & miserable right now. HMPH.

kay,i will end now....

bye. :)

ps; i know you know i know kay... so just leave & drop it there... :/ :l :]

2008-12-16T00:34:00.000-08:00

H e l l o e p e o p l e

this week and last week has been crappy & very rough for me.... :(
my mother is not generous or baik enough to let me use the internet...
i always have to beg...
haiz... :l
father didnt go to work to claim his off-days, was at home the whole week... what a torture man....
i want to do homework , but end up doing housework sial.... cb.

school will re-open in what?less than two weeks time...
hmmm..

must go out with bff soon ^^

but when?
*scratch head*

i'm planning to go out on the 18th...
if possible, i want to catch a movie, do my hair, etc...
hmmmmmphhhhhh......
i hope kimsyg can make it for this thursday to do our hair together-gather!^^
wuuuuuw!
then will ajak the rest to jln2 with us as well but where to?...
well, its not confirmed yet or anything...so no worries girlfren! (:

now my mood for doing homework is gone... :/
been feeling very lazy recently...

omg,this is no good...i shudn't behave like this...
but.. haizz....

i am sadddddd......................................................................
boredddd.........................................................................
angryy..........................................................................
frustratedddd........................................
etc......................................................
and other negative feelings u can think of......... :(
i feel like dying uh....

but only my sayangs & sunshine rays can cheer me up..

(in no particular orders..)

i miss Kimmmmmm!

i miss Sarahhhhh!

i miss Feeeeee!

i miss Emmaaaaaa!

i miss Liyanaaaaaaaa!

i miss Shiqinnnnnnnnn!

buhuu... :/

kay,i don't know what else to talk about....

forgive me..

k,till here...

bye...

2008-12-02T06:56:00.000-08:00

ITS BEEN A LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG T I M E SINCE I LAST UPDATE...

okay so ALOT of things had happened in my life.....(tsk,miss out alot..) but

Finally i can update my blog (: bcos lappy came back from doctor already.. (:

YAYYY!!!!

EOY over, RAYE over, SONORE over..... Oohhhh mannn, do i have to mention all? hmmm..

EOY was okay, i'm top ten (:
RAYE was fun, collections was the most compared to previous years..&& going out with past & current classmates is definitely GEREK!
SONORE?? hmm, it went well. I still feel EMBARASSED & STUPID but h a p p y that the AUDIENCE enjoyed it & was laughing almost all the time.. hahahahaha :D

i hate my role though. it sucks. i knw i look like a BIMBO, STUPID, FOOL & *insert your own adjectives* . heh. but whatever.. [:

Now is the holidays....and my new fren this summer is called BOREDOM :s :/ :l
seriously, at home do practically nothing....
hmphhhhhhhhhhhh :/

cant believe i'm saying this but i miss school.. heeesh.

Finally P knw i like him..or doesnt he??WELL HE SHUD KNW COS ITS OBVIOUS ISN'T IT???
heard nothing from him till now...

so i guess thats it then...we were close only at THAT period of time...
Thanks for the friendship we once shared eh P?
and the so-called ''you're-into-me'' moments. pfffffffffffffftttttttttttttttttt.

can't believed i fall for that :'( urgh! *sobs-sobs*
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Kay IKAHH, get over it. build a bridge. move on. let bygones be bygones..
HMPH!

dont want to be near him anywhere next year... dont he dare say ''Hello'' to me and pretend that things are normal cos ITS JUST NOT.

after all that had happened den want to act normal??? NO WAY , not acceptable.

Haiyaaaaa, alot of holiday assignments manxzxzxz :(
i hope i can finish what i think is important to finish.. hehees.

Cant wait for Thursday to come! going out with just BFFs & watch movie & just having fun timesssss okays. :D Awwwwwww, GUWE KANGAN BANGET SIH SAMA TEMAN2 GUWE ! WAHHHHHHDUHHHHH..

*singing*
"Girls just wanna have fu-unn.... Ouhhh Girls just wanna have FU-UNNNNN!" (:

hmm....so what else i want to say uh? *scratch head*

ahh okay, i'm having mental blocks now so stop here uh..

till then, Take Care Readers! buhbye! (:

2008-12-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

HELLOEEEEEEEEEE PPL! MISS ME?? hahahahaha, kay NO.

2008-09-19T06:27:00.000-07:00

This week ader banyak TESTS.

One after another each time!(socialstudies,dnt,chem,bio,malay,dnt lagi skali..)& i think i'm gonna failed....:'(

OMG,i'm procrastinating and actually really slacking....

And this is all bcos of the stupid four letter word that starts with the letter "L"......

as well as P(him,the one i like,this is his name that i'll called in my blog)... stupid.why am i crazy & like a fanatic now?why?why?why?URGHHHH! }:-/

Yes,i'm confused about love and now i finally noe how does it feels like to be in sofia's n fiona's situation.... somebody please wake me up frm lala land and down to earth back.... :/ Okay,i'm quite disappointed & i know its gonna be disappointment and frustration all the way.... i'll try my best to forget abt romance, love & stupid crap all that & start preparing for EOY for goodness sake!!!

Haiz...i'm late to school almost everyday and i know its bad but..haiz...nevermind.. only my dearest and nearest would understand what i'm going through now... I hope i wont break my promise and follow them
faithfully and religiously...cheyy looks who's talking now..

EOY is what...like less than two weeks frm now? isn't that like a damn short time left to revise the whole topics that we've learnt through out the whole year ?? Oh god,i hope i have the strength to study lahh....i'm seriously tired & penat... blaja,blaja,blaja... can my brain re- hold/grasp that much informations in two weeks time?? mcm mane nak masok kan all the info ppl?!?! HOW?

i can seriously cry right now,i'm freaking out...i've not started preparing for EOY..not really....bcos of what? bcos this week was just studying for the ridiculous no. of tests that we're gonna have & did already.. Kay,dont want to talk abt eoy now... making me more stress..

whats the point if u're gonna be all stressed out & cannt do your academics stuff properly even if u did studied?... that's the same like studying less and wont do well also...

So,many incidents had happened & i didnt update them...

but i want to point out just a few things.... I want to say..

T H A N K Y O U S A R A H F O R F I X I N G M Y H P B A C K ! !

I OWE YOU LOTZSZX BAYBEH! & U NOE I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! :)) ( )3

yes, thanx to her.. i dont have to go to the samsung shop,wait for the long ridiculous queues....waste my time & energy aje.....my hp was actually stuck , It cannot slide up&down like normal for abt 1 week +,it stayed slide at the top aje..... with sarah's magical hand, she was SUCCESSFUL TO FIX IT! So Miss SarahPuff had save me frm all the troublesome... she say i kena blanja her.. okay,i'll be happy to do so but the treat she'll get will bit a lil' late coz i no money,fasting month...

To kimbby & najib,dont fight anymore lahh okay? I know that your relationship can last long & go further... Both of you can overcome the obstacles that will/had come your ways.... Sorry bcos i always had to be the extra person like cik bedah/a third party that always come & join u guy's love affair when i shouldnt.. atleast the risk i took was not wasted as it somewhat helps,& i'm glad i had indirectly save thier loveaffair twice... once again,last long korang!^^

To fionabby,decide what & who you actally want okay? You know you cannot do this for long......brape lamer lagi kau bleh/kene buat mcm gini? for how long more can you handle this situation? it is so susah & leceh sayang... I dont want you to overworked yourself and all the best in all that you do..i know you can make the decision..be strong yo!

SO THATS ALL I WANT TO SAY,WONT BE UPDATING ANYMORE TILL EOY IS OVER...... BYE FOR NOW READERS!

Love, ikahh :))

2008-09-02T03:24:00.000-07:00

I miss ketupat!....i want to say:
Selamat Beribadah Puasa Dan Menyambut bulan suci Ramadhan ini readers! :]
but not Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri of course.. --.-- .... :))

KAY , so it had been a while since i last blog.....

so occupied with that stupid P...harghh..... how stupid can P be??

Driving me CRAZY!!! i've done my part and given my all...

So now i really SHOULD be the one that dont initiate.....

let P be the one... -.-

what happened on sunday,a little bit of monday,and tuesday especially is so disappointing...

it really make me CONVINCED & VOWED not to be the one who initiate first...

So i've make up my mind and the decision is final......or maybe not...

eh no,....uh...yup,my decision is final.FULLSTOP.

belo btol...

Okay so what went on today???

today supposed to have bio remedial but i & kimbby was not sure when's the time so we cudnt care to find out when or to come either... pfffffft.So we only want to come for MT remedial...

it started to rain, heavily.....

me and kim cant afford to get all wet & drenched so borrowed umbrella frm fiona's mum.....

we walk slowly.... n finally reach school...

when i looked at the time, it was already 11:25..... malay frm 11am till 12noon

left half of the time we're supposed to attend....35 more mins aje???

so tak payah pegi sudah...

me & kim sat in the 1st floor toilet.... talking...

Haiyah,i feel so sad and angry for kim bcos of what her boyfie do to her.....

SO DISAPPOINTING,HURTFUL,KURANG AJAR & MANY MORE U CAN THINK OF...}:-l

sorry kim bcos i wrote it here when i shudnt....i cannot bare to see my bff so hurt and down like that... :(

Urghhhhhhh!gerammmmm.....

& besides that, two other ppl make me geram too.....which is P and lionqueen... -.-

lionqueen ingat dier bagos sangat uh...urghhhhh!

dalah,talking about her is already disappointing and infuriating....

kesian dier,dah paiseh.... well,its somewhat her fault too.... -.- :P

she can live happily and do whatever she want now but later at akhirat,

its gonna be sekse i think.....

but i always kept wandering why the sekse cannot now?kay,i'm so bad but seriously,

she need to solat....

First week of ramadhan and i only get 1 DAY TO FEEL how is it like to feel back of puase...

bcos my little friend come...aka red flag....

haiyah,i wish it cud come later like 2nd or 3rd week of puase....

then it wud be like a break after puase a forthnight or a week....

pfffffffft. --.--

anyway,huurah it came... it wud be better if its later...

my mother too is having red flag....hmmmm,so what shud i do to take advantage of this???hmmmm , i SHUD get my homework done..... do tiring stuff like cleaning the house up...

go window shopping.... Ahhh.... Go Geylang....and look for baju raye... :))

hahahahahaha .. puase blom habes abe nk pikir pasal baju raye eh?? LOL.

Kay, so thts it for today..... will be updating wenever i feel like to...

Take care readers! :))

p/s:remember this, you're not that great f**ker...

2008-09-02T03:23:00.001-07:00

HELLOE PEOPLE!!!! ;))

2008-09-02T03:23:00.000-07:00

HELLOE PEOPLE!!!! ;))

19th august 2008

2008-08-19T06:45:00.000-07:00

Okay , so i've not update my blog for quite sometime already..... all because of CT2 yo... paham2 uh... Haiz.... very stressed... :-l
So, this post will be abt a survey...bace lah...

Survey; tagged by urhhh...actually i dont really noe..its two ppl actually...sarah & fiona but fiona wants me to do abt her so... Here goes...:D

1. The first person who tag/pass you is? FIONABBY!

2. Your relationship with him/her? Oh she's my beloved bff,mummy & pornstar!:P

3. Your five impression of him/her?She's pretty,caring,funny,cool,very pleasant ! ^^

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? Hmmmm...too many uh...:-S its usually about always being there for me when i needed her to hear me out and my problems..^^

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?" Most memorable??? too many & too much also!!!!:D my brain is blank now so i dont noe.. :))

6. If he/she become your lover, you will? We will live happily forever after..;))

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be? Make decisions for herself by listening deep inside her heart and just follow her natural instincts..

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will? I will not be able to sleep for days ,become emo and cry bitterly everyday...

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be? Because other people sabotage our friendship or a big misunderstanding occured

10. The most desired thing you want to do now for him/her is? Make her studies be balanced & better and not merosot just because of a distruptive,distractive four letter word called LOVE...

11. Your overall impression of him/her is? Haiyah...alot ah... urhh... sastifaction guranteed ah being with her... hahahahaha XD

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?I don't know...up to them ah what they think abt me..

13. The characters you love of yourself are? i'm passionate,lovable,warm,hospitable,& urhh..Kay nevermind... dont want to puji myself that much... :)) hehees..

14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself are? Being hurt & disappointed unnecessarily bcos expecting a person to do the same to me what i've done to them when actually we're not supposed to expect anything in return...bcos its abt giving yo...

15. The most ideal person you want to be is? nabi muhammad :)) insyallah...

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them? THANK YOU FOR LIKING ME BUT IF CAN LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE ME!!!^^ I'LL CARE & LOVE YOU TOO!

17. Pass this quiz to 10person that you wish to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.

1.sofia
2.fatin
3.fiona
4.sarah
5.kim
6.shiqin
7.izzati
8.sonia
9.liyana
10.emma

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with? ;shiqin? hmm..dun noe.. she didnt say anything..:(

19. Is no. 9 a male or female? ;Liyana? SEXY FEMALE YO...;))

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? ; Izzati & emma?? good arh... make friends:)

21. What is no.2 studying about? ; what i'm studying and i'm malas to list it all out except that she took art while i dnt....

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? ; Chat? no,but talk... urhh..yesterday..today she didnt come to sch mah...

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? ; Sonia?? idk..... everything ah....

24. Does no.1 have any siblings? ; Sofia? yeahhhh, total 4 including herself..

25. Will you woo no.3? ; Fiona?? dont want later alfian kill me....

26. How about no.7? ; izzati?? cannot woo ah , don't dare bcos she got berd already..hahahaha ^^

27. Is no.4 single? ; Sarah? yeahhhhh but she's my BF already....(boyfriend+bestfriend):))

28. What is the surname of no.5? ; Kim?? i not sure...whats surname anyway?? first name? middle name? or last name? or nick name? --.--

29. What's the hobby of no.10? ; Emma? shiok sendiri i think... hahahahaha XD

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? ; Kim and liyana?? of course ah,same cca and go countless outing together pon...

31. Where is no.2 studying at? ; Fatin,admiralty sec.

32. Talk something casually about no.1. ; Sofia,GoodFriend,BFF still i think....smart,lovely,pretty,hot,baek^^

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6? ; Shiqin? OUH YESSS, bcos she's very adorable and sweet!

34. Where does no.9 live at? ; Liyana?? hmm..i went to her house b4 for hari raya but dun noe already...

35. What colour does no.4 like? ; Sarah?? hmm.. i think black & white :))

36. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends? ; kim and sofia? hmmm,dulu damn rapat ah but now okay2 i think....

37. Does no.1 have any pets? ; sofia?? ADER!..... S O T O N G ! hahahaha XD

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? ; izzati? bleh dikatekan ah...hahahaha :))

39. What is no.6 doing now? ; shiqin?I don't know...sleeping perhaps..

2008-08-05T01:23:00.000-07:00

pout it HOT like me !

Alaaahai.... :)

No ikah,no sunshine! ;)

I Love Sarahbby! ( )3

Pictures taken on sunday during excercise time with sarah & emma. :))

Sunday,got madrasah,woke up late and didn't feel like getting ready...
But force myself... and i make sarah wait so longgggggggggggggggg...
I'm so stupid,annoying,merepek fren.grrrrrrrr. i got ready so late but sarah still
waits for me. Thank You very much.
Though i do feel really bad, so i want to treat her.

I asked her to choose what she want , chocolate? no. keropok? no. pau? no.
finally , its air bottle , peach tea . :)

As usual , during madrasah we crap , laughed, and others you can think of...
then suddenly we were thinking want to go joging together or excercise?
And yes it was decided .

Madrasah ends,1.30pm . Few hours later , blahblahblahblah .
At 5 + pm , got ready and went out to meet sarah to excercise.
Emma too was with us , planned with her when she called me up.
Dier ade bola VOLLEY BALL lahhh seyyy. Mahal and new , she can't wait
to play with it with us :)
And she bought it with her own money$$$ , OhhMyGawddddddd,
if i , i would have bought clothes,dress,pumps,etc.
if i'm not mistaken , it cost $$60+ . FUHH!

Anyway,while the three of us were walking on the pavement nearby s'poresportsschool,
something STUPID happened.
There was a group of mats , not even mats . i think its mat sentol/kental. with their bicycles...
One of them shouted :

"Eh , yg biru tu! ... bleh knal2 tak?"

and i was like *harghhhh!*

emma was wearing orange , sarah , red . and i in blue , obviously its ME.

i panicked , i didn't know they were MAT MELAYU bcos from far , they were quite dark like indian uh so i don't care . Tapi lupenyer melayu. Haiyo..

tak habes2 a few of them mekik2 "Eh!bleh knal2 tak? "

i was scared already , and i said "Eh , dahlah dahlah . Jln cpat2 , cepat!"

Sarah siak uh , dier lagi bleh mekik "NAMER DIER ATIKAH !!"

'''Oi sarah! diam lah bodoh! " i said.

tak stop tau dier, dier lagi bleh continue , "Nombor dier NINE...SIX...SIX ....."

"Oit! Aku simbar air nie kat kau baru tau." *raising the water bottle in my hand*

and finally she stopped. i walk hurriedly wanting to be far far far away from the boys.
After a while , they stopped. phew!

Few minutes later , we reached the running track and played the volleyball.
abe tibe2 it bounce & roll maha roll till dropped into the LONGKANG .
Ewwwwwwwwwww :-S
The longkang was DAMN DIRTY , really have alot of bacteria in the water.
The colour and 'things' floating on it says it all.....
Emma and sarah was the one trying to take in back.
I decided not to touch the ball for the rest of the day after what happened.
After washing it with my water, the SMELL was still there...
so bachen!

sarah & emma continued to play for awhile, while i already started jogging to finish the track.
Sorry , you guyz bcos i didn't play the ball with you .
My hand have rashes and ade terkopek siket.
Whenever kene air , pedih .
I'm even a burden to my mother as i can't wash my dish after eating and she'll have to wash it. haiyo , apelagi if i touch the ball yg da masok the longkang with dirty waters tu, lagi worsen my condition nanti .
I hope u guys understand. :]

Then somehow we got separated, i waited for them somewhere but they didn't see me and walk the other direction. I thought they were angry at me thats why they ignored me. And so i went to vista park . Mcm loner sey.

After awhile, sarah called my hp , i thought they were angry at me bcos i ngade2 don't want to play and touch the ball, but actually they didn't saw me . so the day went on as per normal and I enjoyed myself :)) We camwhore , joke around , crapped like h***. :D

So , yearh , thats what happened .

Monday and today , hmmmmm , is there anything special happened?
i don't know but i 'just can't seem to type anymore . Besides , i don't want to make this post a long lengthy one and make it sound boring already...

Kimbby didn't come to sch today :( Why??

Kay , thats all for now , will be updating if i rajin .
Take Care Readers ! :))

p/s: are you referring to me , or not?

Wednesday 30th july 2008

2008-07-30T08:39:00.000-07:00

YO ,YO , YO ! KPO READERSSSSSSSS ! ! :D

*Kay,sungguh tak perlu...*

So, hows my day today??
good and bad, but overall , i feel a lil'down , moody and crappy... :-/ :(

and from my inference , other ppl are also feeling down like fionabby,kimbby,izzatibby & i think sarahbby too... or maybe she a little bit only...

well , all i can say is sabar ppls , u guys need some time to think things through again then you'll noe wat exactly is wrong and that wat is it that you have to improve......

and if you're rajin , check ur horoscope & it will help you and if they're close enough ....
they may tell/say wat u're gonna feel on that day....

say whatever you want abt me being a horoscope freak but wat i read is close to wat happened to me..... if it doesn't happen to you.. then too bad... i'm just suggesting..

Horoscope doesn't tell you the future , but it helps you to anticipate....
it says something and its up to you to choose to do it or not....
or even to believe it or not...

And it'll make you happy/excited if its GOOD! :))

if its BAD , follow wat it says so you won't react in the worst manner and embarass urself or feel ashamed of wat you did when u're not supposed to....

Understand now?

today got stupid workshop, didn't find it useful as i know it alreadyand its about BASIC stuff...
didn't enjoy myself... fee escape from it....
Ayohhhhhhh, kau nanti in trouble ar...
hahahahaha kay,juz kidding..... be strong kay fee? dun sad2 :)) i'm here for you yo!
sarah blanje me chocolate sundae from mc donald...
so nice of her...
Thank you sarah :))

p/s:eh,dun blanje me anymore ah, you blanje me alot of times already eh sayang...

before that, we went to library to do geog project...
then i was naughty... i read seventeen magazine, march issue..
while flipping thru it , alot pictures/paper was cut and teared...

so wat thing that i did was naughty?
i teared an INTERESTING article from that magazine...

*HARGGHH!* :-o
(i'm so bad right?)
nvm mind uhh, da byk org tear pieces from that magazine..so what difference will it make if it tear something too?

the article that i teared has very good tips and really help abt something...
Not gonna tell you whats the article abt even if you forced me :P

yearh , thats wat happened... actually there's alot more happened today but i'm really tired now... got to sleep yo..

will update again kay.......

till then... bye2!^^

Friday , July 25 , 2008

2008-07-25T06:58:00.000-07:00

HELLOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE READERSS!!!

Today , something happened that TOTALLY had me startled :-0 ;))

SOFIAbby and FATINbby beat me during morning run lurh seyyyy...:D
when i entered the main gate , i saw them :))
in side my heart *Eh , fatin & sofia beat me?? FIRST time siolxzsxzszxzs* ;)

good for them . GOOD JOB korang :))
All thanx to IZZATIbby for motivating , encouraging , and forcing them :))
hahahahahahaha. :D

But i feel disappointed abit bcos for the past two years , during p.e or morning run ,
i & kim have been the one who semangat and like to run and so ,
i had often asked sofia and fatin to run , but they didn't.....

Naughty eh korang . . . . make me feel a little sedih..
well , i guessed izzati is a much better coach then me :))

Keep it up the both of you , fatinn and sofyah.. =)

Okay , so wat else that happened today....
hmmm ...
*thinks hard..*

ouhyah, kim didn't come for cca today..:(
i want her to come but there's a crisis at home....
stoopid lah , why the room's door locked??

Now, i'm bored , damn tired , and really need rest(S) :))
i do want to write abt other things that happened but my finger now is wiggly and lazy to type...:(

so thats all i afford to write abt today...

will updating if i rajin kay.....
goodnight readers!

Wednesday 23July2008

2008-07-23T06:29:00.000-07:00

Us ... :))

Fareha and meeee :)

Cute,sweet,baek,lawar gerl Farehaaaaaaaa :))

Pictures taken after sst.
Today , 23rd july, is sweet kimbee's 7 month aniversary with her boyfie,najib...
i wish you last long babe!!!!!! don't fight often kay? the both of you can go
further lahhhh... Cheer up! :))

today,
i was late for school , luckily kim was late with me too...
ader kawannnnnn :))...
at first , we want to run to the gate but the weather was really bad...
the clouds become DAMN DARK areadi.... so no mood to rush..
so we walk slowly to the main gate...
we walk on the big padang,grass and leaves and twigs stuck on my shoe...
make it dirtyyyy... stoopid...

then, punishment for being late is sing the national anthem without the song..
must sing loudloud, same goes to pledge....
then , when me and kim heading to class , nobody was there.... :( it was supposed to be bio lessons....
luckily the cleaner was nearby and helped us to open the door..
so we put our heavy bags and head off to search where the class could be....

we search high and low and tk jumpejumpe... from level 1 until 4.... }:-l fed up siol....
we think that they would be at sci lab or computer lab but don't have.....
lupe nyer kat library... didn't thought library would be the place for sci lessons...

so me and kimbee sit at toilet, singsing , waste time and also revise for chem test...
then p.e. , i forget to bring my p.e. shirt and short...
then , there's no chem test... the class go to library instead of just staying in class...
did what was supposed to do then sleep..
wooooooooooow , i had a plenty good time of rest.....
so shiok and nyenyak... with no one to disturb me :))
so happy i get to rest :D

and other stuff happen , blah blah blah... yada yada yada...
went to sst even though i don't need to .. did my homework..
yayy! so no more homework for today..
sst ends.
accompany kimberly to the toilet that got lesser ppl with fareha as well...
she need to be lawarlawar before meet boyfie mah...
good girlfriend.. ;)
hahahahahaha XD
leaves the school.
then separates with kim as she go with her boyfie..
me and fareha talktalk and chat long abt this particular somebody..
He is so prasan... haiyo... thanx fareha for telling me all the info :))

then i go back woodlandsmart to buy ice cream at mc donald and saw fatin , sofia , izzati and her friend,forgot her name...

me,fatin, hang out at sofia's house... i was bored , nothing to do so i followed them..
anyway i don't even like my home.. like s*** only....
will only ruin my day...

after a while , leaves sofia's house .
Fatin and i walked home together :))
talk abt what we want to do when we're adults already , our ambitions , abt teachers lahh and other stuff you can think of....

So that was my day readers , will updating more if i rajinnnnnnn .
Take care ! :))

2008-07-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

Wonderful classmates and BFFs :))

Sweet,kind,friendly,pretty gerl Jasma and me :))

okay , so da lamerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr aku tk blog .that's bcos my mother hide the lap top and i'm so malas to beg from her --.--

Kay so , alot of things happened .
And there's no more fight between us anymore :)) (since a week ago or so..)
we all made mistake , we fight, we're not perfect , we apologised , and we're friends again :))

yeayyyyyy! so wat to talk abt now?... hmmm.....
thursday was great , i had fun ,we take pictures, get to crap with bffs and
it was Racial Harmony Day . and that's the day kim apologised to sofia,fatin and izzati, FINALLY :))

We all would sound bitchy when we're angry but we must control our
anger at times . and dun get confused or misinterprete easily .

i'm the peacemaker :)) , and so i asked kim to blanje me :))
kurang ajar eh? kay,i'm soooo tak tau malu .

Thank you very much kim bcos u treat me chocolate iceblended bubble tea:D
very much appreciated, sorry if i asked too much ,i asked that bcos i have not
eaten/drink my own thing during breakfast,recess and even lunch before sst , i cannot tahan anymore., and so i asked for bubble tea ,

to me, it'll make me full somehow....
and sofia , sorry bcos i refused to teman you buy stationeries at woodlands mart .i was feeling kinda of penat , malas , and saket bcos of my kasut high heel ...--.--

okay , thats all readers , will be updating if i rajin okay:))
T a k e c a r e !

Saturday 12 July 2008

2008-07-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling a little suckish and blue today .

I don't understand why that somebody is still giving me cold shoulders...

You seem so mad and furious that you won't ever forgive me?? Nor reply what i had said ? why?why?why?
Now i feel that you're hateful of me . . . Who's playing the hate game now? I don't hate you fatin , i know you're pissed/sad that izzati said she'll want to back off because she don't want people to hate her but i don't hate her for being close to you nor sofia . Things are better already right ?

why do you think i don't mean what i say ? I'm sorry i'd made you invincible and hurt you fatin , really minta maaf . I realize i'm not a good and equal fren to you ... I'm unfair and merepek.

I'm trying my best to simplify this misunderstanding in a good,mature,and polite way once and for all . Don't ignore me and what i had said . Because if you're just not answering me , that just shows that you don't forgive me . And what does it mean by not forgiving someone ? It means "I'M STILL MAD AT YOU AND I HATE YOU."

Hey , actually i do care for you and love you but at the end of the day, its you who choose to think whether i love you or not . I can't change what you think . I do want you back, but would you want me ? I don't think so bcos i know you'll be happier with that precious fren of yours,Izzati . Its sad to lose someone,that is you,but i thought this is what you want? right?

So lets summarize things up,
you're heartbroken,damn sad,and angry bcos i'd made you invincible.I'm in the wrong,I apologized. Do you accept it? i dun noe yet . Do i wish to let you go? Absolutely no . Do YOU want to go? It seems like yes ... So don't hate me nor give me the cold shoulders okay. Its your life, you say what you want and you choose who you want to be with . Am i stopping you? no. However I do feel sad that you're not close to me as before :( but hey, you'll be happier with her , and the rest, right? So i guess this is goodbye to our BFFness friendship and helloe to a new different type of friendship between me and you.

I still have sarah,fiona and kim. sofia? i dun noe yet .
Saye pasrah dan saye ikhlas.
Terima Kasih banyakbanyak untuk apa yg kamu telah buatkan untukku fatin. Saye amat menghargai nye.
:))
TRIMA KASIH BANYAK BANYAK F A T I N !

And i'll always be there if you ever need any help or anything . Thanx for a l l the wonderful memories . :))

And i want to say . . .

Thanx for treating me starbuck cheese cake that time:)
Thanx for being open minded and tangan terbuka for borrowing me $6 just like that, that time:)
Thanx for the Forever 21 gorgeous ring birthday present:)
And many many more! :)))

All the best in everything that you do okay fatin.
Take care.

11 July 2008 Friday

2008-07-11T07:30:00.000-07:00

I AM FEELING SAD,CONFUSED,DISAPPOINTED AND MANY MORE......

I can't believe SO MUCH THINGS can happened in TWO days...
Starting from today , the two nice people i've meet are not as close as before .
Fatin , i don't know that you were feeling 'like that' deep down inside and
you REALLY did express it in your previousprevious post .

Well, i don't know what to say . I can see that you're feeling very miserable .
Its your life , and you choose with whom you want to be close and friends with okay?
do what that makes you happy bcos i think you won't be happy even if we did get back together
as before . I know that you are a really wonderful person deep down inside and i have seen
you like that many times before . I'm sorry Fatin bcos i make you feel invincible sometimes /or most of the time, sorry fatin , minta maaf .

And i want to clear something too , i'm not jealous if fatin and sofia are close with izzati , really .
Izzati , i don't hate you okay? I don't think you're stealing my bff , fatin and sofia ,
or maybe they're not my bff anymore . I think you're a nice,helpful and friendly girl :).
Please don't make this misunderstanding the reason that my friendship with you will be different . i dun noe about the rest on how they think and feel about you... but this is wat i REALLY and TRULY feel . Just don't make this matter more worse okay }:-) :-S :-l ;] but i know you're trying to help fatin/sofia . Thanx for everything you did for sarah and me , thanx for teaching me maths when i dun noe the answer . ;)) Don't think that i hate you , dulu jer ah aku hate kau bcos sofia close ngan kau but now i don't hate nor feel jealous when you're close with sofia :) So , no more hard feelings ?

To Sofia , i don't know what you're thinking or doing right now bcos you haven't blog yet nor show your feelings . Just don't keep quiet and keep it all inside okay , do talk , show, express , and say what you want to say to me or whoever else(kim,fiona,sarah) . Its really not healthy to keep all the CRAP feelings inside . Don't you want to clear anything ?? The reason why I distanced myself from you is bcos I feel and think that you've changed . Do i really want to end friendship with you ? I don't think so bcos i know you're a really good person inside and we had gone through thick and thin together . Just that i find you different than before since last week . Do you really want to end friendship with me ? I dun noe what you think of me , but i sure do want to say that be with somebody that will make you happy . Its your life babe , i'm not forcing you to choose me .

Semuwe org ader favourites and not so favourites . And of course i can't please everybody and you too can't please everybody . Thank you for all the moments that we've spent together :D :)) , i really appreciate it and enjoyed it , oh gosh , it had been a really roller coaster ride being with you , good times and bad times . All the best in everything that you do okay sofia . :)

Now i've said what i want to say ... lega siket hati kuuu... :DD

Okay , thats all i think and feel for now.... will be posting more if i have other feelings ..

O k a y , take care KPO readers .

hahahahaahahahahaah XD

Okay,just kidding.. :)) Byeeeeee !

Wednesday 2nd July 2008

2008-07-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

Today , wednesday .....

just like any other typical day since school had started
only that today funny,unlucky and lucky things happened :))

today is the day i finally gave sarah the present,
a handbag and a beatles t-shirt.
during queue-ing time before having PE ,
suddenly the alarmed sound ,
"KRINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGG!"
Alahai,baru looking forward nak maen PE,
da kene assemble kat padang panas2siolololll

ader banyak grasshopper pulak tu,
gatal buntot and peha aku ....
and then for my napha test,
i get bronze,quite disappointed bcos i was expecting GOLD :))
already counted and it shud be gold :P
stupid system, how it count seyy..

then there's elective remedial ,
i dun noe whether i need to go or not
but i just go bcos i wouldn't want my name to be called up
early morning tomorrow...
Mr. Wee was damn funny siolollol.....

he showed how he cut and bent the acrylic by melting it..
style uhh...
Before he cut it, he did this stupid excercise
like tai-chi tai-chi, then shake his butt lahhh...
wat lahh , konon nyer dier professional uhh and some other stupid stuff..
hahahahaahahahha. XD
If you're there , you will laugh ur arse out too! :DD

then,after cutting , he need to blow it with this blower at 500 degree , to bent it .
hot seyy , and he did another stupid stuff ,
he go and blow his hair and body and armpits and all over the body...
while blowing his hair , jun hong suddenly sing
"I..........CAN GIVE YOUUUU GATSSSBYYYY, GATSSBYYY,GATSSBYYY......."
hahahahahaah XD
Mr. Wee lagi bleh kate , "uh yearh oh *smiles & laugh*, sing thats song for me again..."
& for the rest of the remedial , he kept singing that song ..
stretchstretch and drag the song pulak tu..
hahahaahahahahahaahahah ;DDD XD

after, remedial,sarah borrowed me $1 , 10cent .
i need to break it bcos 60 cents for bus fare ,50 cents for
my bus pass bcos i only have $27 when it is $27.50 ... 50 cents less.
thank you sarah for lending me money :)

then while breaking the $1 sarah gave me, a $1 coin drop
at first , i didn't know that it was mine bcos i didn't remember having $1
in my $27,then i gave it to this sec 1 boy uhh..
then in the bus, i counted my money and it was only $26.50...
that is wen i realise..
THAT WAS ACTUALLY MY ONE DOLLAR COINNNNN..
CB LAHHHHH , the bus pass $27.50 ,how to pay???

BUT , something i thought wouldn't happen , happened :))
i said to the pak cik at the MRT service counter ,

"Cik , bleh sponsorkan saye $1 tak? saye cume ader $26.5o utk bas pass.....
kurang satu dolar je...*showing pathetic & sad face* :("

then he said "Boleh...."

i was shocked ,"Huh? BOLEH?"

he replied "boleh , tak pe , awak kan slalu buat bas pass kat sini"

i said , "Oh, trime kasih banyakbanyak cik! " *tersenyum lebar*

IT WAS MY LUCKY DAY ! :)) WOOOOOOOOO
hahahahahahahaahahah . (tak tau malu eh aku?)

heehees . daaa tak payah jln balek rumah dgn beg berat :))
Anyway, miss teo pon kate , its better to have a thick face than you shyshy
and thin skin , we should speak up more often to clear any doubts and ask qns ,
if not , we're at the lost :))

Yearhhhhh,that's what happene:))d today folks ...
will be updating if i rajin okay ?

do tag & read others again . take care!!!!! :DDDD

Saturday 28th June 2008

2008-06-28T03:39:00.000-07:00

Today saturday,

sent my youngest sister,lisha
to her madrasah .
went to sofia's house to photocopy social studies wksht
because i thought there is .
ontheway walking to sofia's house,
the wheather was damn HOT uh,
i was sweating like hell and thirsty :(
(dunia nk kiamat uh...) =(
for ss , there's no wksht
its just a long qn on a foolscap paper...
wasn't alert during ss period because damn SLEEPY ...
until i forget wat the homework for ss was....

tomorow sarah's birthday,haven't got the present yet,
will get it on monday.

so sorry sarah ..
ur pressie a little bit late .

Okay,thats all for now readers .

22nd June 2008

2008-06-22T06:10:00.000-07:00

Today is sunday,got madrasah.....

while getting ready for madrasah to meet sarah,
she msg me that there will be an EXAM !

ohmygod,we didn't study siolololol...
confirmed failed..
we write crap sey for the answer..
and do alot of referring back because sometimes
u can get answer from previous qns or examples... ;DD

my sch homework,i haven't do compo and chem section c..
chem can do tmr with frens ...
oh gosh , hope i still have the strength to do compo...
need to squeeze brain to get the ideas flowing... -.-
after finish test,saw EMMA seyy,
i asked "biler kau start madrasah kat sini?"
she answered"1.30" -.-
i asked wen she started go madrasah at there,she go and tell me
wat time her class starts... Dengggggggg. :DDD
me & sarah laugh siol ,looking at emma wearing tudong...
PURPLE SIOLOLOL .
hahahaahahahaaha. :DDD

colour last warning seyy...
then in the bus on the way to interchange,
i wondered how sofia would look like wearing tudong.... o.o
heehees... XD
funny urh,sarah n me laughed while imagining of that..
then wen to the library do summary together..
do oso anyhow..

can't believe tomorw is already school reopens day,
times flies so fastttttttttttttttttttttt ...........
in the midst of holiday,i tot it was boring because nothing to do &
just rot at home...
but now , want more holidaysssssssssss.
buhuuuuu ... :(
need to drag myself to sch tomorow...
but miss all my BFFs , get to see them tmr :))
Well , that's the only good part .....

Okay,thats all for today ppl . will be updating sooner or later .
Byebye :))

20 June 2008

2008-06-20T01:47:00.000-07:00

Today , nothing much hapen ...
so boring at home..
just check friendster and listens to songs at imeem....
quite content that i've done four of my homework...(well,not exactly, some i dun noe BUT did tried) :))

left writing story n letter homework & chemistry..
but how to write storyyy??
not in the mood uh..
then chemistry, dun like the section c
so alot , i thought can choose but cannot..
need to do all .
cb lahh ..

Okay,that's all for today , will be updating more if can.
happy last few holidays people . :(

haiss...

Sunday 15th JUNE 2008 Hannah Montanah Craze!

2008-06-15T03:05:00.001-07:00

Today is SUNDAY and i'm supposed to go to madrasah

but i skipped it . HAHAHAHAHAAH ;DDD

*high5 sarah!*

we didn't go , wakakaka . ;))

Instead,i go to hannah montanah party bus tour with

3 of my younger sisters and a 7yr old cousin .

At first i thought it was lame & a waste of time but its actually F U N & C O O L! ! !

Somehow it'll make u excited and be a kid back .

but i didn't of course , i controlled myself . :))

As usual , I'M the MAKE-UP ARTIST to my youngest sister,lisha . ;D

hahahaahah . Very nice uhh .... *okay,prasing self.*

All they need to do is to dress-up like a super star .

Lisha was wearing a cute top with words :

FIRST chic and ♥

DESINERS....

and mini-skirt with winx high-cut sneakers , SO CUTEEEEE !

Her assessories , HOOOO , alot .....

-star bracelet

-shinysilver heart watch

-TWO rings-black&white earrings

-thick pink headband

-flowerflower hairband

In the party bus room , lisha took a picture with a special concert background ,

then she can use assessories available there like :

shades , crown , jacket , guitar , necklace , microphone & ALOT MORE ...

So after taking the picture , she enter the recording room ...

that's where they'll play the song while you sing and record your voice ...

thats all for the process .......

the end product ?

A CD with her photo taken just now on the FRONT ....

with her name all that .. JUST LIKE HER OWN POPSTAR ALBUM !

(i wish i could post a picture of it but can't)

Plus! silkygirl lipgloss,perfume,hannah montannah poster .

SO COOL ..... Awwwww,she & my other two sister are so lucky ..

my childhood times is not as great as this ....

Besides that , she did it again but as a whole group ,

so total 4 kids , my three sisters n cousin .....

This time , they all were interviewed by silkygirl & disney channel reporter !

LUCKY seyy ...

then the man asked them to say :

"Hannah Montannah Rockss ! ! !"

the cameramen was taping them all the way while they're singing ,

after the CD was ready , interview lagi ....

but my sister yana & ilah malu so

its just lisha & my cousin,lyana . (bodohlah dorg ...)

anyway , the man asked lisha & lyna to say :

"I'm famous now !" *while showing their CDs to the camera*

Hahahaahaaah,

tapi sayang , i don't have disney channel but

will be going to my cousin's house often to see clips of them . ;DDD

Shortly after , eat greentea mcflurry ice-cream (tak sedap siololo,rase mcm wasabe ader , mcm sayor pon ader , bluek!) :DDD

then home .

Okay , that's all .... will updating more if can .... ;]

Sofia , one of my BFF ask me to do this ... :)

2008-06-09T22:34:00.000-07:00

Thanx S O F I A for asking me to do this , actually i don't want to bcos i seldom update my blog , but anyway , here goes ...

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples.At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this :)

(not in any order)

1. sarah

2.emma

3.sofia

4.fiona

5.fatin

6.sonia

7.kim

8.liyana

9.lisha my youngest sister

10.ibu

11.baba

12.datok

13.farah

14.izzati

15.liyana my younger sister

16.nakia

17.munirah

18.sarah my cousin

19.aisyah "

20.asmaa "

How did you meet #14?-

We're already classmates :)) & in faniakahtifia pte.ltd

What would you do if you hadn't met #1?-

She's one of my BFFs , and without her , i can not live bcos i love her . :-*

What if number #9 and #20 dated?-

lisha my sister & asmaa my cousin? No , they won't date bcos they're cousins :))

What if #6 and #17th dated?-

No , cannot cos both are girls , if not then it wud haf been lesbians .

Describe #3.-

Too many words to describe her , she's forgiving , my BFF and i love her . :-*

Is #8 attractive?-

Oh yes , not just attractive but hot & glamourous . ~WOOO ;)

Describe #7.-

She's a mixed, my BFF , sweetie , & i love her :-*

Do you know any of #12's family members?-

I know every single one of them bcos he's my datok & we're ONE BIG FAMILY ! :)

What will you do if #18 confesses that he loves you?-

first of all , its a SHE . Sarah , my fav cousin , i love her already .:-*

What language does #15 speaks?-

English , Malay , Indon , A L I E N ......(i dislike her cos she's damn rude)

Who is number #9 going out with?-

lisha ? she's too young to go out with anybody , juz 6yrs old . but i noe who she like ,

His name is SHAMI . hahahaahahahaahahah . :DDD

How old is #16?-

When was the last time you spoke to # 13?-

Uhhh , 3 or 4 days ago ...

Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?-

I dunnoe .

Have you ever dated #4?-

YES ,many times ! ;DDD She's my BFF , MUMMY , i love her :-*

Would you ever date #1 ?-

Yes , if i was a boy , because she's damn pretty . ;))

Is #19 single?-

I dun noe , hope so bcos she suppose to be s t u d y i ng ...

What's #10 last name?-

SALIM , my mother's father , so its my DATOK . LOL .

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?-

OHMYGAWD! That's my father. No way! (coincidently,same like sofia .) *scratch head..*

What's the school of #3?-

Admiralty Secondary School.

Where does #6 live?-

Around admiralty ...

What's your favourite thing about #7?-

Kim? She have changed , ALOT in a good way , she makes me laugh , we love to do wild things together . trying clothes at metro ,prom dress . HAHaHahahahaahahah & other personal stuff , heehees ;DDD

Have you ever seen #2 naked?-

No .

The people to do this: Those whom i've linked and haven't do yet ...

[Sorry , i dun noe exactly who have done it & who already does . :( ]

Wednesday 4th june

2008-06-04T08:06:00.000-07:00

Helloe,today was pretty much like yesterday . . .

go for the sci workshop , tired after that ..

Outside the gate , decided to go home with farah as i'm quite pissed with

sofia . Nevermind about that , sick and

tired when this kind of things hapen .

So when going back with farah , at first it was weird

as she keeps showing me surprised & shocked expression while

replying & reading her msg ,and i had a good laugh :DDD. We talked abt someone but

its not bitching,just thinking how weird it is as we both

had been same class & primary sch with him but didn't talk

to him much . And we were sharing akward , hilarious incidents

that hapen in primary sch . . . Then i can't control

myself to pee and had to use toilet at farah's house . . . :DDD

Hahahahahah

She said its gloomy like Adam's family but

its not afterall,

her house is nice . Then me tak tau malu , go in

her room & start commenting on her room .

Hahahaahahah :D

After use the toilet , salam her mother , then while tying my shoelace . . .

Saw her cat , its very different & unique :)

Colours of black and brown mixes , and the name is Comot .

how cute and suitable ..

so thats all folks , will be updating more if i can .... Bye ! :))

Tuesday , 3rd june , like it & don't like it .

2008-06-03T07:22:00.000-07:00

Okay , so it has been awhile since i last posted . . .

Been very tired bcos of a sci course from 8:30am untill

5:30pm . . . What a bummer . . . And i can't believe i'm goin trough this

from monday until friday .. GOSH , just dragging myself

and chanting "when is this going to end?when is this goin to end?"

Although it sounds so stupid,boring n tiring to choose to attend this course

but believe me,this have the benefits .

It trains you how it would be like in university and

poly in 2nd year... (i can't believe i'm doin 2nd year polyworks)

when i'm only sec 3 . . . ;))

*okay, shut up ikahh , so ACTION...*

Okay , so back to this ... well yearh lahh , the course is

good lahh but difficult..

I regret coming but i know its for my own good

& so i like it & don't like it at the same time....

Thank goodness Mr. Cheng provide some motivation & encouragement

to continue...

I had really appreciate sarah my BFF , whenever she waited for

me before goin madrasah & i will always

be so damn late , but she still wait for me

even though she noe i'm goin to be damn late almost everytime...

SARAH , U'RE GREAT ! :DD :-*

I feel damn guilty and sometimes just want to

say to her "don't wait for me bcos i'm goin to be damn late. . ."

but she till waits for meee... so T H A N K Y O U S O M U CH S A R A H !

Aku amat menghargai nyer... :)) :DD

Sofia , so sorry i break my promise , i know i'm late and i don''t

want you to wait for me anymore because you said

i'm getting on your fucking nerves .

Yearh , i haven't realised it and thats why i'm little miss late . -.-

LOL.

2008-05-30T19:46:00.000-07:00

Wokay , yesterday wanted to update but can't cause mom is so stingy ...

i always need to beg from her JUST to play the internet...

How pathetic .. the laptop can take but

no battery so she'll hide the charger...... (smartypants) :P

Finally now can surf the net :)) ..

so .. yesterday was friday ..

got chem remedial ...

dun noe wat i've learnt .. even if i did ...

it'll be very little , wat a waste ...

Then , i didn't talk to one of my BFF , not even a HELLOE ..

Is it my fault or hers ?? OMG, how am i gonna face her next week?

i'll be taking a sci course same as hers....

GOD,i hope all this will be over soon but how do i solve it ?

I didn't approach her because i knew she was mad at me.....

How to talk to somebody who is angry at you??

So i didn't say anything to her ...

After chem was over , i packed my things ....

Heading the exit door , i saw her coming to the door too

so i walk hurriedly and WHOOSH ...

Just like that , passed her and didn't look at her face . . .

I dun now wat else to say ...

After that me,sarah,fiona went to sch library to play com..

Shortly after , when sending fiona home , saw najib ...

Maan , hope kim n najib is okay already ...

You both , dun fight-fight lahh... Anyway ,

After that , mom called and said i could bring one of my fren to

eat ice-cream at swensen's ... so i brought sarah along ....

Sorry to the rest of my bff , sarah live near me & our way to go back home is the same ,

interchange , bus 900 .. so yearh , :)

Eh sarah , do i still owe you something because u had help me with my blog skin , friendster profile , etc .???

Cause you get to eat swensens' ice-cream with me ..... ;))

HAHAHAHAHAAAH . :DDD

so . . . Do i still owe u??

Nah , juz kidding ...... i am willing to give you more

& help you cause you've helped meeeeee !

^___^

2008-05-29T03:14:00.000-07:00

HELLOE . Thank you for viewing my blog , this

blog-thingy is new for me And this is my

truly FIRST entry i made myself (previous was from

BFF;sraaawrahh) :)) . Nothing great

happened today but I just want to tell to that somebody

whom i loved that . . . Sofia , I'm so sorry

that you prefered her more than me . I think you're

beautiful inside out & i still do . You know that i

always loved you & even sometimes i said i was jealous .

It's sad that you're not close to me as before . Hopefully next week, things would

change & be better . Sometimes i cry & think to myself what did

she provide you that i didn't . If i'd given more.....

would she prefered me or still her ?

It's so sad...so so sad....

Everybody's changing & i don't feel the same ...

2008-05-28T20:20:00.000-07:00

Heyho.

I made this blog due to the pesterings of my friends.

Bhahahahahahahah :D

Well,okay,will be updating more.

Btw,this is sarahh.

See,i'm editing her blog for her.

LAZYBUM!

Bhahahhaahah :D