Saturday, April 24, 2010
Omggggggggggg, i was watching this movie just now and i cried many timessssssssss. like more than five times..
Is crying more than five times considered to be too much for just a movie? I know people usually cry two times during a movie, or basically less than five. But this?!? I cried MORE than five times! is it just me or this movie is DAMN GOOD? its very rare for fire signs like me to get emotional easily. woww, over the years, i feel that i've become more sensitive and emotional. I did score quite high-average for the level of neuroticism. that means i do respond emotionally to things. shit. i dont want that cause emotional can get the best out of me sometimes.. :/ i guess i should listen to my head more than my heart sometimes. Emotions can diminish our ability to think clearly, make decisions and cope effectively with stress. so i hope the level of my neuroticism will decrease over the years.. Besides, they said Neuroticism decreases with age.. so just wait and hope things things will change for the better. Hmmm, now i know how the water sign usually feels.. :l cause i'm in this period now... Very sot, emotional, or maybe even too sensitive. Gosh how i wish i'll be out of this period soon... I'm still feeling the same as how i felt in my previous post. Still sad.. depressed.. shocked.. and many more you can think of.. Though i may not show... the thoughts, feelings, and memories kept replaying back in my mind..
Why must we be separated from our close ones? Why cant we just be close to one another everyday?? Why cant we just be near to each other?? WHY?? i do know the answer but sometimes i just cant seem to accept it. i'll somewhat deny it. Okay so what do i think the answer is? I think we are separated from each other cause everybody has different ambitions in life.. Some of us want to be a doctor, a teacher, a photographer, lab technician and e list goes on and on and on.. Thats why we cant be together all the time and do the same things like before.. unlike in secondary school.. :l :(((
Haiz..i know this is part and parcel of life. But.. kay nvm. idk how exactly to put it in words. All of us want to be different person when we grow up. thats why, we got to be separated, while we're on our way learning and striving to become what we want to be in life. :l :/ :] NOW I THINK my answer would be different for the facebook quiz. The quiz was this: What do you need in order to be happy? And i got success. The quiz say i need success to be happy.. then i see my friend's result. they all need friends to be happy. i wondered why my ans was different than the rest.. :/ I think my head was kookoo at that time. Looking at things right now, my answer shud be friends. I need friends to be happy. Look at me now, do i look/sound like i'm happy? The ans is obvious. *sighs*
Hmm about that movie. I think i cried many times because it reminded me of Mr Russia/Y. :/ i was very very very very very angry and upset and superrrrrrrrrrrr hurt. Till i was m.i.a for one week. I was down,needed time to be alone.to suck my own wounds till it healed... all the things that had happened. from what he did to how he react/respond.. :l He's been both a sweetheart and a jerk. He msged last week, as if wanting to start what we used to have last time. And hid bby asked will i give him another chance to redeem himself? well, i dont know. some part of me say yes i should give. while some part of me says no. To be honest, if there is any reason why i choose to avoid being in contact with somebody, its because i dont want to get hurt again. Haiss i miss those times when we were close. I'm not sure if thats ever possible to happen again. Hmmm, like hidayah said.. Just keep the gd memories bt try to forget the bad ones. Yeah..life should be like that. (Y)
I was emo countless times this week and last week. thinking about the past. about my GFs. I wonder how are they doing. I wonder how are they coping with their daily life routine.. are they thinking what i'm thinking? are they feeling what im feeling? we all are in different environment. be it schooling or working. Though i'm in the same block as sofia, i rarely see her. Its so weird. seems so near yet so far.. Poly is sooooooooo huge. And there's sooooooo many people. i cant keep track of anyone unless they're in the same class as me. I didnt even bump into Firah this week. In times like this, whenever i think back the about things that i've done to my gfs. i feel guilty and miserable. i know what i've done wrong/bad/over. If i know i would be feeling like this, i wouldnt be too hard on ppl in the past. I wud just be patient and give them the best. I should be perfecting my love to them, overlook their faults and fight their mistakes. Yeahh, only now i understand that
Friendships are like wine, it gets better as you grow older.