look at this face ppl. how i wished i can give you this face RIGHT NOW.
WOW.yday and tday has been a challenge for me. Including tday, total three challenges i have to face. so..idk whats the moral of the story.. but one thing for sure is.. i'm not scared. its not my fault.i've tried my best. ~~i wont die if ppl are trying to be funny or weird. it'll just drive me insane. but it wont be long till i get over it cause really, sometimes they're making the problem when it doesn't have to exist in the first place. c'mon you guys, snap out of it..... i want the old persons back. stop being/acting like something you're not.
hmmm.tday there was supposed to be a meeting/outing but i didnt go. cause i'm sick. like really sick. i woke up at a time when we're all supposed to meet. thats such a downfall. THEN. my body feels weird and i have running nose. the sickness came back. shit. i've just recovered and it came back? oh please allah, make me feel better.. ): i dont want to be sick when poly start. i need to be healthy and normal and meet new ppl with bright fresh cheer-y faces:((((not sick with dull-low-energy face.
man i'm so weak tday, after i ate my breakfast, i fell asleep again. And lay down on the bed the whole day. THE WHOLE DAY. that simply show how weak i am. i woke up around 6pm plus. suddenly my phone rang and i make it silent. i couldnt afford to talked right now cause my throat is just in a bad condition. i'm coughinghard. and "lendeh" is still bothering me. it just hurts. and my nose is just filled up with disgusting fluid. i dont want to speak and use my voice at all. i'm guessing the call is by sarah cause a few seconds later i received a msg frm her. we talk abt tmrw. idk if i'm strong enough for tmrw :l :/ :s :( but i SERIOUSLY WANT TO & NEED TO BUY THAT LEVIS JEANS WITH HER & I FREAKING WANT THAT PUMPHEELS B4 POLY STARTS !! I'VE BEEN EYEING ON THEM SINCE GOD KNOWS HOW LONG AGO!
what have i done to deserve this sickness now. well, with the cherry-on-top, circumstances around me isnt helping at all. not that understanding. hmmmm, i cant wait meeting new people and making new friends. i'm an aries. i simply love starting anew and practically anything that got to do with new beginnings. I LOVE IT. look at my lifestyle/stories and you would have seen it. starting anew especially.
starting anew is always a good thing, its like smwhat throwing away the bad,erasing the negative, start fresh and taking the goods. but sometimes, its not effective. want to know why? Because even though it's starting ANEW, for some people, it'll just go back to where it used to. and the cycle begins all over again. Isn't that brilliant?
so what would happen to them next? well to me, they will suffer the same thing or problem all over again. they will seem miserable cause no change take place. not even a single thing. then all they do is complain complain and complain.
maybe its a personality problem(which = to permanent), or maybe its just a bad day for them so that's why they act weird for that particular day.(which = to temporary) u decide which one you're going to show me. then i infer to myself, are you goin to be like that till the day i die? is that really in ur DNA? or are you gonna change before i die?
if i think you're goin to be like that till the day i die, i will distance myself frm you. then i'll hate you. then it'll be.. urm.. SAYONARA. then after a few months, you will be sad or regret. then maybe you'll miss me. but then i wont miss you. cause my mind is already set to hate you. or maybe you wont miss me. but whatever it is. i'll be thankful & happy cause finally, that person is out of my life, which = to lesser problem in my life. now that's brilliant. (Y)
who's next?